I don't think I want to know...:(

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I don't think I want to know...:(
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Tue, 09-29-2009 - 3:11pm

Hi Ladies,


So I am suppose to test this Thursday and I am starting to freak out and not feeling to good about the results. I am even thinking of not answering the phone and see what happens (lol). I don't think I can handle negative results and if they are I am hanging up my towel from TTC after 6+yrs of heartbrake and failure.


I have tried to stay sooo positive and not stress out. I know my body wennt through alot during this IVF convert and I tried not to read into any signs because of the OHSS and progestrone 3x a day so I know I am having some of those symptons and when I say to myself "oh this didn't work" I get a nasty feeling in my stomach as if it's my gut telling me "your right" (I haven't told anyone else that). I look at my babies everyday and even kiss my pic praying I am wrong and they STUCK AND GREW....I am very happy that AF hasn't shown because she always does either day of testing or a few days earlier and even though I have felt she is about to come she hasn't...(THANK GOD)


TMI: yesterday I had a lil and I mean lil light brown spot on my liner and of course I said here COMES EVIL and I just whiped and nothing more so I put my finger inside like if I was putting in the progestrone and nothing no light pink and no more very light brown so I thought ok maybe I discharged a bit heavy but IDK what to think nothing has come since and again I THANK GOD!!!!


I don't know how we will handle the down fall and how I will be able to move on but thanks for listening to me vent...


Hugs,


Michelle

 

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Registered: 07-30-2009
Tue, 09-29-2009 - 4:02pm

Michelle, I understand how you're feeling. As much as you want to know it just feels like it's easier not to know. Like ignorance is bliss.

I will continue saying my prayers for you as that's all I know to do. And send cyber hugs, I can do that too!

 

Kelly

I'm 38, DH is 42 and we are TTC #1. We've had 3 unexplained miscarriages and a bout with Asherman's Syndrome but we're determined.

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Tue, 09-29-2009 - 4:13pm

Michelle,


I am hoping and praying that you will get your BFP.


The 2ww is difficult enough in a regular cycle so I am sure it has been much more agonizing after everything you have been thru.


Hopefully it will all be worth it when you get a BFP!!!


Hang in there (((hugs)))


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Tue, 09-29-2009 - 4:13pm

Kelly,


The strength you give me you will never know how much I hold on to that as if you are my charm and I appriciate you very much.


I will continue to stay as focus as I can untill Thursday were I think I will be throwing up all day untill I get the news either way...PLEASE GOD A BFP!!!!


I pray for you everyday as GOD does hear us...I trully hope this is it for you with a double wammy IUI...I hope you are staying positive as I know I read you are just going with the flow per say...


Thanks for sharing your thoughts and encouragement with me:)


Hugs,


Michelle

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Tue, 09-29-2009 - 4:36pm

at first I wrote that I hope you were throwing up on thurs and you keep throwing up until 8 weeks from now... then I realized it sounded really really mean! sad that I am wishing morning sickness on somebody!

 

Kelly

I'm 38, DH is 42 and we are TTC #1. We've had 3 unexplained miscarriages and a bout with Asherman's Syndrome but we're determined.

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Tue, 09-29-2009 - 6:11pm

Big hugs Michelle,


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Tue, 09-29-2009 - 11:31pm

Michelle,
(((((((HUGS)))))))I've been thinking about you all day and wondering how everything is going. I really have a good feeling for you this time! Good luck and I'll be xing everything and praying for your BFP!

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Tue, 09-29-2009 - 11:44pm

Michelle


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Wed, 09-30-2009 - 3:02am
Hugs Michelle!
Keeping fingers crossed for you for Thursday and to keep AF away!
There has been quite a few BFP's on the board lately so I think something is in the air making our board lucky for you too:-)
Tons of sticky baby dust!!!!!
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Wed, 09-30-2009 - 7:23am

Ladies,


You are all far to kind and give me sooo much hope..Ok i almost cried but there is one other woman at work with me at the moment and she will be all up in my face if she hears so it REALLY touched my heart. All we want for one another is forour dream to come true and it hurts us when we are heartbroken.


I am going to take everyone advise and STAY HOPEFUL, KEEP MY FAITH and BREATH...You are all the best woman can ask for in times like this is our lives...xoxox


Kelly go ahead girl I will take it wish me sickness..LOL


Hugs,


Michelle


P.S. Today I am HOPEFUL:)

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Wed, 09-30-2009 - 11:34am

(((HUGS))) Michelle!


I am praying for you and sending as many BFP vibes as I can your way.

Me - 26, DH- 32, DH and I have been together since January 2003, happily married since September 2007, TTC our first for over 1 year.  Dx with MFI, low morphology.  Currently getting ready to start our first round of

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