I got to let it out!

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Registered: 09-28-2006
I got to let it out!
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Mon, 12-22-2008 - 1:27pm

I was at a baby shower yesterday for a friend of mine that is due a few weeks before I was due. The minute I walked thought the door I wanted to leave. Wow was that clock was my friend. It got so uncomfortable I went to the bathroom to take a breath and almost cried. I was embarrassed.


I felt bad because I felt like I was being selfish but I couldn’t help it. She just got married and no problems pop! she pregos, when we both found out we were prego at the same time, we were on the phone all the time, read the same book together, share prego news and stuff then, pop! I loose mine. I’ve been trying for 4 years and I can’t take this anymore!!! Like really I can’t! I was fine until yesterday. If one more person I know has a baby before me I will die! I can’t do this again! I can’t fake my emotions, any happiness I had for everyone else has been exhausted. I have no more left happiness left. 



AhHHHHGGGG!!!!!


Cynthia :(

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Registered: 06-12-2008
Mon, 12-22-2008 - 1:40pm
(((((hugs))))) Cynthia.....I'm so sorry your feeling so down....sometimes it feels better to vent and let it all out.....I understand what you mean, I think we all feel like that at times....I know for me the feelings come and go....sometimes I'm ok with other peoples babies, and sometimes It's like I've had enough...
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Registered: 09-11-2008
Mon, 12-22-2008 - 2:09pm

I agree with you, Jeane. Some peoples babies I'm ok with and others I can't bear to be in the same state. My DH's little brother's baby I'm absolutely in love with. I was fine with their pg, except for the day he said to DH "aren't you jealous I'm having a baby" (YES!!!!!), but I was there for the delivery. My niece, my nephew and DH's step sis are all pg and I don't want to be around any of them. I'm dreading X-mas day.

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Registered: 08-19-2007
Mon, 12-22-2008 - 2:36pm
I'm there too. I know a couple that have had 3 kids in the time DH and I have been trying for just 1. Makes it seem SOO unfair. The next person who says "it will happen it should happen" I'm going to slap. I'm not typically a mean person, but I only have so much patience. Thankfully I didn't get to go to our family reunion this past july, b/c with out fail SOMEONE is ALWAYS pg or just had baby# whatever. Then I get the questions....don't you want kids?? Why are you waiting so long?? GRRRRR
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Registered: 10-31-2008
Mon, 12-22-2008 - 3:53pm
HUGS Cynthia!

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Registered: 12-09-2008
Mon, 12-22-2008 - 9:16pm

((((HUGS)))) to you.

Deanna

TTC #2, 3 m/c prior to successful birth 2002. Multi cycles w/ Clomid no success, clomid with IUI 10/2007 m/c 12/2007.  Injectible with IUI 8/2008 m/c 10/2008.  Clotting facor, no regular ovulation and DH low count. 

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Registered: 11-07-2008
Mon, 12-22-2008 - 9:19pm

((((HUGS)))) Cynthia.


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Registered: 06-28-2008
Mon, 12-22-2008 - 11:08pm

((((HUGS)))) Cynthia. I have stopped going to baby showers altogether.

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Registered: 09-28-2006
Tue, 12-23-2008 - 3:39pm

Thank you everyone for your kind words and encouragement. After typing that I felt the stress leave me a bit. And reading your messages made me feel much better. Thank you so much!


I feel you are the only people I can be honest and open with. I am an open person in general, but my friends wouldn’t understand. They might think "when

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Registered: 05-20-2008
Thu, 12-25-2008 - 9:57am
Cynthia
  

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