Im about to lose it

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Im about to lose it
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Fri, 03-25-2011 - 3:37pm

Ok I am about to lose it guys.

I went on facebook and just saw that my DH stupid cousin is pregnant. Let me just recap for you guys who has gotten pregnant in the last year.

1. My sister - actually she gave birth last year and although it makes me sad she is a mom she is so super supportive and I love my niece so I am the most ok with this.

2. My SIL - she would be the one who is with a dead beat guy who might even be abusive to her. Neither have a job, are on tons of government assistance, and are a mess. And they get pregnant on purpose. Then she did not want to believe she was not producing enough milk and ended up making the baby malnurished and jaundice and it was in the ICU for like 3 days. I mean she is the poster child for someone who does not deserve to be a mom.

3. My DH cousin in NY who was (and possibly still is) an alcholic. They got trashed at my wedding and her fiance wore jeans to my wedding. (We are by no means snobs but it was not a redneck wedding and torn up jeans was NOT ok)

4. My DH other cousin who just got married. I do not know much about them aside from the fact I do not think they have jobs either or just moved out of their mothers house. Either way they are certainly not in the same place my DH and I are.

Add in the fact I do not feel any different this cycle. And my DH and I could not muster enough desire (or ability) to have sex the second day after our IUI like our RE said we should. I only had one egg and I just feel done. I am done and sitting here about to cry over the whole thing.

I know my DH did not tell me to help save my feelings but I wish he would have told me instead of me reading it on facebook.

I just cannot do it anymore.

Dixie

"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella

TTC since April 2009

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Fri, 03-25-2011 - 4:32pm
Dixie,

I am so sorry that is seems like everyone in the world is pregnant but you...I completely know the feeling. While I love Facebook for catching up with old friends, I do often feel as though only those posts about who is pregnant or whose baby just started to crawl or ultrasound pictures are the only ones that come up on my newsfeed! Facebook can definitely be evil sometimes!!

I really hope that this is your cycle for a healthy, sticky BFP!

Kelly :)
Kelly (31) DH (32) TTC Since June 2009 August 2007 - Myomectomy - removed large fibroid on back of uterus January 2010 - HSG reveals "possible" blocked left tube March 2010 - First RE visit (PCOS secondary to CAH diagnosed) April 2010 - October 2010
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Fri, 03-25-2011 - 5:18pm

((((HUGS)))) Dixie,

I'm so sorry! You know TTC is like buying a new car. You think you get a unique color, or a new car that no one else could possibly have yet, and once you get it you see it EVERYWHERE! TTC I think is like that. You want it so badly, but it's just not happening to you but you run into every prego lady on the street possibly! Unbelievable, Right, right! If we didn't want it so badly I don't think we would be faced with it or noticing it as much as we do now. I'm afraid that by the time we have kids all my siblings will be done having theirs. And then my kids won't have any cousins their age to play with, they will be baby sitting my kids! LOL I've gone through one of my sisters, and three of my sisters in law being prego at the same time (twice) they were all due within 4 months of each other. They each have three year olds, and NOW they have others ranging between 7mo-12mo. Three of them say they are done now, one can't make up her mind but my brother (her husband) say's he's happy with the two they have. I'm almost to the point where I am begging him to go for one more just so my kids can be around the same age as someone. ON my dad's side of the family one of his sisters had 9 kids. And I swear, each of

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Fri, 03-25-2011 - 6:24pm

Sorry, I know it is overwhelming when everyone around you is preg. I guess the only consultation is that it is perfectly normal to feel this way even though it may seem irrational. I have only been on this board a short-time but you seem like a strong and determined woman, so you lose it once in a while but hey this stuff is physically and emotional demanding. I keep saying every month when I get that BFN that I can't take it anymore it is all too much but after fits of tears and a little household destruction I seem to find the will to move on and do it all again.

Wishing you all the best,

Me 37, DH 40 m/c Dec 2005 m/c Nov. 2007 TTC first child since July 2009 Clomid - two rounds started March 100mg
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Fri, 03-25-2011 - 10:01pm

Dixie,

I am so sorry to hear about all of the people around you who seem to be getting preggers--especially when many of them seem to not have a healthy environment in which to raise kids...that has got to be the most frustrating case of all!

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Fri, 03-25-2011 - 10:02pm
I am so sorry Dixie. I have nothing to offer but ((HUGS)) , Infertility is not fair.
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Sat, 03-26-2011 - 1:04pm

Thank you ladies so much. I know we all go through this struggle and that so many of us are faced with pregnancies in our face. That is why I knew I could come on here and vent. It is just so upsetting that these people seem to do no work towards anything and get EVERYTHING.

I certainly hope that we all get the BFP we so deserve. And I cannot thank you all enough for the words of encouragement. I am still not having a good day but it will get better.

Dixie

"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella

TTC since April 2009

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Sun, 03-27-2011 - 4:07pm

Dixie!

I'm so sorry! All of that just SUCKS! This will all past and it will happen for you!

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Tue, 03-29-2011 - 4:58pm
Big (((HUGS))) Dixie

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Thu, 03-31-2011 - 10:02pm

Why does it seem like all of the people who don't plan their future, and haven't really thought about supporting a family are the ones that get pregnant so easy?

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Fri, 04-01-2011 - 7:18pm

Thanks for the words of encouragement. I told my mom the last time she came down (and was really sad for me) that God has a plan for me. I believe that. It is just super frustrating when you cannot see the plan.

As a side note I completely understand about the pregnancy scare. When I was in college we too had one and I was so paranoid. Now I wonder if I should have prayed for an accident. Who ever can tell.

Dixie

"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella

TTC since April 2009