Looking for somewhere to vent!

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Registered: 05-05-2009
Looking for somewhere to vent!
Tue, 05-05-2009 - 9:07pm

I just found this site and I am looking for somewhere to unload all of my emotions. My dh and I have been ttc since May 2006. We tried on our own for 1 year and then began started seeing re. My regular dr and re both said all we need is an iui and it would happen. We had 8 iui, 4 with no meds, 3 clomid, 1 with clomid and gonal f. I ovulate regularly but re said I need to be super fertile since we weren't getting pg. Finally we decided to go for IVF, we had 7 eggs, 6 fertilized. We put two 5 day blastocysts in and froze 4. Two weeks later bfp. We were so happy but it was short lived. When we went for 7 week ultrasound there was no hb. I was devistated. re said there was 50% chance a hb could show up. We went back one week later and still no hb. re said it was a blighted ovum and had to have dnc. I have never felt like this before. I can't seem to stop crying. I am not sure what to think now. I thought if I could get pregnant I would be able to stay pg. I just feel so isolated. RE just said "20% of all pregnancies end in miscarriage, it's just hard for you because of all you've gone through to get pregnant". Needless to say that didn't make me feel any better. I can't talk to my friends about this so I just don't talk to them anymore. My family is supportive and so is dh but they just don't understand how I feel. Everytime I see a pg woman or a baby I just cry. I am going to have a frozen embryo transfer in June and I am trying to have a positive attitude but it's so hard. My dh and I are doing acupuncture so hopefully it will help. I did it before IVF. Thanks for listening.

Me: 28 MTHFR                                 

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Registered: 04-05-2009
Wed, 05-06-2009 - 7:37am

Awe, I'm so sorry about your struggles and your losses TTC.


Faith (35) Matt (40)

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Registered: 10-31-2008
Wed, 05-06-2009 - 8:19am
Hello Mali and welcome to the board. I am so sorry for your loss and struggles.


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Registered: 01-31-2008
Wed, 05-06-2009 - 11:47am

Hugs Mali,

I am so sorry for your loss and your struggles. You have found a great place where people will understand how you feel and support you. This board has been a lifesaver for me.

I hope the acupuncture helps and your transfer in June goes perfectly.


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Registered: 08-10-2007
Wed, 05-06-2009 - 8:25pm

just wanted to send {{{hugs}}}

i'm so sorry for all the struggles you've been through, and for your recent loss :(

may 2006 is when we started ttc as well, i can't believe it has been 3 years this month! our story is of course different but i always hold that anniversary of when we started trying, so happy and innocent,

Remembering o