Neices Funeral

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Neices Funeral
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Mon, 04-12-2010 - 8:47am

Saturday was a rough day and probably the worest I have ever had. As you know my baby neice was stillborn on 4-3. We laid her to rest this past Saturday. I feel like a large chunk of my heart was buried with her. It was a very emotional service. They had viewing at 9am and it was horrible. She did not look good at all. I wish I wouldn't have seen her like that. I then watched them close the clasket and that was hard. I sobbed through the whole service. It really got me at the end when they sang the song Tears in Heaven by Eric Clappton. Oh my god that song never left my head and when I hear it in my head all I do is cry. I do not understand why God has taken her from us and why she was never given a chance.


I have placed my IVF cycle on hold since I want to make sure that I am emotional and physically ready when I move into it. I am hoping to be ready for a July cycle.


I hope to get caught up this week with everything that is going on. Thanks for being the support I need.  

 


 


Me ~ 31  DH ~ 33  TTC #1 since August 2002. Dealing with mild Endo, PCOS, Diabetes, and MFI.


DD ~ 12 from previous marriage


2 rounds of Clomid 2004 – BFN


First RE consult 2008 but was not the right time financially. L


Trying all Natural from 2004-2010


IUI #1 with Bravelle 2/10 – BFN


IUI #2 with Bravelle 3/10 – canceled do to low response. Will try timed BD but not real hopeful. BFN


IVF #1 May/June 2010


Katrina


 

Me ~ 31  DH ~ 33  TTC #1 since August 2002. Dealing with mild Endo, PCOS, D

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In reply to: ruonaka
Mon, 04-12-2010 - 3:19pm

Boy, your story is bringing back memories. I can't even imagine having to listen to that song. I use to work in an office where someone played country music all the time. I probably cried 50% of the time and had to tell him to shut it off often. I don't know if it was your sisters baby or your brothers, but make sure you give alot of opportunity and initiate a conversation often for the mother to talk about her baby

Karen S


Samantha Kelly ~i~ 7/31/07


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Registered: 11-13-2008
In reply to: ruonaka
Mon, 04-12-2010 - 2:22pm
(((HUGS))) Katrina, I'm so sorry for your family.

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Registered: 07-30-2009
In reply to: ruonaka
Mon, 04-12-2010 - 11:05am

Hugs Katrina,

I can only imagine how emotional and sad the funeral was for you and your family to go thru. Again I am so very sorry for your loss and hope and pray your family can heal from such a tragedy.

 

Kelly

I'm 38, DH is 42 and we are TTC #1. We've had 3 unexplained miscarriages and a bout with Asherman's Syndrome but we're determined.

BFP #4! - 1/
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Registered: 11-07-2008
In reply to: ruonaka
Mon, 04-12-2010 - 10:58am
Katrina,
Big ((Hugs)), I want to tell you again that I'm so sorry for the loss of your niece. I can only imagine how hard the service was. It's never understandable why a child is taken so soon. I wish you and your family much comfort during this very difficult time.
I understand your need to delay your IVF cycle and giving yourself time to heal and feel emotionally ready to start. Sending my thoughts and prayers to you and your family.
((Hugs))

Me (30), DH (30)


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Registered: 08-20-2009
In reply to: ruonaka
Mon, 04-12-2010 - 10:08am

What a sad, horrible event for you and your family.

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Registered: 10-31-2008
In reply to: ruonaka
Mon, 04-12-2010 - 9:11am
Katrina, I'm so sorry for your loss.

~Christine~


TTC since 6/2007. 
IVF #1 Jan 2009 - BFN
IVF# 2  April 2009 - BFN
IVF# 3 July