The next steps...

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The next steps...
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Sat, 08-25-2012 - 2:29pm

Hello ladies,

Here's a brief update/vent:

I have one DD who will be 1 year very shortly.  She was concieved after more than 3 years of infertility treatments, all leading up to an unsuccessful IVF.  We got pg naturally the month after the failed IVF.  Just lucky for a change, I guess. Maybe something shook loose.  Unexplained infertility is a crappy answer for "Why can't I get pregnant?"  and "Why do I keep having miscarriages?" Not that there are ever good answers for those questions.

I had hoped to be expecting #2 at this point but my recovery from DD's birth was very long and very painful and I am still having problems with pain.  (TMI alert for further reading!)  My OB has basically said there's nothing more he can do, after more than 18 weeks of me taking Diflucan to try and get rid of the persistant yeast infection that has been plaguing me since the baby was born.  I remember being stitched up after the episiotemy and crying because it hurt so much and he was saying that he'd frozen it and it shouldn't hurt.  I think there was already something wrong, then.  Looking back at the horrifically painful and VERY long recovery I really wish I'd had a C-Section.  I can't imagine that the recovery would have been nearly so difficult. It was more than 6 months before I could even try BD again. 

The OB prescribed numbing cream to make BD bearable for me.  I came home and had a good cry.  It's been so long since I could comfortably be with my husband and we are both suffering for it, although he's been very patient and kind.  Feeling nothing is, I suppose, somewhat preferable to the pain but how does that make BD any fun for me? 

I have an appointment next week with our RE and I am going to ask his advice about what to do, even though my OB seems to think it's fine for us to start trying again.   I don't know whether to start trying or to get another opinion from another OB.  Hoping the RE can give us some insight. 

Once we've figured things out, we'd like to try naturally for a couple of cycles and then if it doesn't work we'll do a FET since we had 2 embryos frozen as a result of the IVF in 2010.  My DH can't find a job in his field and is going back to school this fall so I'll be the breadwinner for the next number of years.  It will be difficult for me with him away a few nights a week, looking after our one year old and working more than full time to pay the bills.  The only reason we're trying for #2 is that it took so long to have #1 and I'll be 35 next year... it certainly isn't going to get any easier in a few years when DH finishes school.  Right now I'm hoping for another natural miracle since getting the FET is $1000 we don't really have to spend right now.   

We both really want another child.  I really want to have more than one more if it's at all possible for us.  I just wish things were a bit brighter financially and emotionally for me.  The stress of going back to work and knowing that every penny I make is already spoken for is really hard.  I've always had a little be extra to put away for emergencies etc. and now I don't.  Scary.   

Just wanted to get it off my chest to people who I KNOW won't say "Just be happy for what you have!" and "You can't afford it now, anyway."  Like 4 years from now will be easier or better with student debt and me getting close to 40.  Okay - done venting now.   

 

 

~ Meron born 12-09-11 after 3 1/2 years of TTC, IUIs and IVF.
~ #2 on the way(!) and due 06-06-13.

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Tue, 08-28-2012 - 9:00pm
Sorry Heather, I really hope you guys can have another miracle baby. I can't believe you've had such a horrible recovery from birth! You should definitely seek another opinion!!

-Jamie

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Wed, 08-29-2012 - 4:48am
Heather I am so sorry you are having a rough time. As to issues with bd I had them too. Just within the past couple weeks I have been able to have sex without being in tears. I am convinced the nurse and ob who did my delivery messed up. Which is why I am changing ob.
As to trying I know I dont have to tell you to not ley others make you feel bad about what you want. I pray you get answers from the RE.

Dixie

"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella

TTC since April 2009

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Thu, 08-30-2012 - 4:37pm
Thanks for the kind words, Dixie and Jamie. When I went back to the RE he was awesome. He suggested exactly what I was going to ask for anyway - which was that we try natural cycles for a couple of months first to see what happens. He offered monitoring for those cycles if we wanted it and suggested another IUI or two on natural cycles if BDing doesn't work. He also said the IUI was an option on a natural cycle if BDing was still difficult for us so that I wasn't stressing over having to BD when it wasn't comfortable for me. He also said (without me asking about it) that if I was still having trouble in the next couple of weeks he would arrange for me to get a second opinion from another OB because he thought that it was unreasonable that I should still be having problems. He also said that my OB is excellent but sometimes a fresh look at what's happening is a good idea. So we'll see how things go this month and if I'm still having difficulty I'll be going to see someone else. He also agreed that we could try using the frozen embryos later in a natural cycle... the only drug related suggestion he had was that we use the progesteron after the LH surge as that was a standard of practice for the clinic. So glad he was on the same page as I was! Keep your fingers crossed for me. Heather

~ Meron born 12-09-11 after 3 1/2 years of TTC, IUIs and IVF.
~ #2 on the way(!) and due 06-06-13.

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Thu, 08-30-2012 - 4:39pm

Oh Jamie, I forgot to say congratulations on making it through T1.  That's very exciting... have you started telling family/friends?  I hope you are starting to enjoy it all and worry less.

H.

 

~ Meron born 12-09-11 after 3 1/2 years of TTC, IUIs and IVF.
~ #2 on the way(!) and due 06-06-13.

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Fri, 09-07-2012 - 3:39pm
Whoa Dixie!! I clenched my legs together with that one. OUCH!!! I certainly hope that WHEN you have your next babies, it is much easier!

Jemma (35) and DH, (37). Married October 13, 2007 and TTCing since April 2008. Dealing with PCOS, swollen tubes, and also MFI. Committing myself to getting healthy and losing weight in preparation for IVF later in 2012.

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Sat, 09-08-2012 - 5:34am
Me too! I am changing OB so when I go to my new one im gonna as ask. Since my first tear was so bad I fear I would tear there again all the way through.

Dixie

"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella

TTC since April 2009

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Sat, 09-08-2012 - 9:42am

I definitely know what you mean, Dixie!  I had an episiotomy (sp?) and I still tore very badly internally too.  I remember him saying he was going to be angling the cuts (yes plural) so that it avoided the same problem you're worried about.  At this point, I think all the infection did was slow the recovery to snail pace.  Now I think I'm all healed from that but not the yeast infection since the discomfort from it came back yesterday just as bad as it was before!  I have to wait until Monday now to get a referral to a new OB but I will be in there ASAP... Was hoping to be working on baby 2 next weekend at O time.  So frustrating! 

I think the recovery still would have been long and difficult without that.  Now I'm still sitting on the fence about C-section if we are able to have another one.  Funny, because I was sooo totally for V-birth.  I guess I still am, but I just don't want to go through the same pain and frustration.  It would be great if things moved faster...referral on Monday, appointment Tuesday or Wednesday and whatever meds might work I could take right away.  Too bad it doesn't work like that!!!

 

~ Meron born 12-09-11 after 3 1/2 years of TTC, IUIs and IVF.
~ #2 on the way(!) and due 06-06-13.

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Fri, 09-14-2012 - 4:42am
I sooo wish it worked like that Heather!

Dixie

"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella

TTC since April 2009

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Fri, 09-14-2012 - 2:41pm

Wow Dixie!  I see Noelle is 8 months old already!  Has she started crawling?  Meron was slow to start lifting herself up - I think I didn't give her enough tummy time, and she was so big and long I don't think she had the strength. For quite a while she just rolled to get from A to B.   Now she's running everywhere.  I bet Noelle can't wait to get moving and get into things! 

Heather

 

~ Meron born 12-09-11 after 3 1/2 years of TTC, IUIs and IVF.
~ #2 on the way(!) and due 06-06-13.

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Sun, 09-16-2012 - 3:41am
She has been army crawling for a while. I am constantly chasing her. We just bought a baby gate,but she hates baby jail lol. Noelle is not a fan of sitting up, she would rather stand or crawl. Based on how she moves I wouldnt be surprised if she does not ever regular crawl. She is very quick now so I fear what will.happen when she learns more.

Dixie

"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella

TTC since April 2009

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