Not a good day

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Registered: 02-28-2012
Not a good day
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Tue, 02-28-2012 - 8:50pm
Today my primary dr finally put a referral in for a fertility specialist. Absolutely breaks my heart that 8 months later we still haven't been able to conceive. A little about myself I am 20 and have a son from a previous relationship I had when I was 16. My husband also has 2 children from his previous marriage. I'm starting to lose all hope I will be able to have a child wih my husband and it's affecting me very negatively. I try so hard to forget about it but the more I try the more pregnancy and babys is shoved down my throat. And the few people who know we are having trouble conceiving make it seem like I'm exagurating being so upset. I know I have a child and am so thankful for him but I feel such a deep need to have a child with my husband. More and more I am seeing people I grew up with have baby's and live off of welfare or just not take care of their baby in general. Yet here i am completely self sufficient and have all means to nurture and care for my child but nothing. Sorry for going on and on I'm just in desperate need of someone who understands. Im an emotional wreck and am losing the strength to hold myself together
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Registered: 04-12-2010
Wed, 02-29-2012 - 1:50am
Let it out. There were days I just had to cry and get mad. You need those days and ladies like the ones here who let you have them. Going to a specialist is like becoming more proactive. I felt like I was being supplied with ammo to fight IF. Do not,become two discouraged. Places like here are proof miracles happen. Allow yourself to grieve over the fact getting pregnant this time around is harder. The women here are wonderful. I hope soon you will get your sticky bfp. Much baby dust to you.

Dixie

"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella

TTC since April 2009

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Registered: 02-28-2012
Fri, 03-02-2012 - 3:16pm
So yesterday I was suppose to get my period but didn't so I let myself get all excited inside....again. Took a pregnancy test and it was negative. I got pretty hurt and turned to my husband who made it seem like I was being over dramatic and that it shouldn't bother me we can try again next month. When you've heard we can try again next month for 9 months in a row while watching everyone around you get pregnant....it just straight out hurts.
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Registered: 04-12-2010
Sun, 03-04-2012 - 8:04am
Pregnancy tests were always the enemy for me. It is depressing because you feel like there is no end in sight. Do not despair. It will happen but allow yourself to be upset its not this month. Its not fair but it will get better.

Dixie

"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella

TTC since April 2009