OMG what a trip!!!
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|Sun, 11-09-2008 - 1:39pm|
So, the whole point of going to FL for the weekend was to get away from everything. My sister just having her baby in particular and getting away from TTC (IF) world. Flying with a cold or whatever this is/was was terrible, I could feel the presure in my head, our flight was delayed, and DH didn't ask for directions on how to get to the hotel. Friday was great (minus me being grumpy in the morning)!! We went to the beach, swam in the ocean, and a few other FL things. Well DH goes to the rehearsal and he was going to pick me back up before the dinner. Well he come into the hotel room and says, "I have to tell you something. __________ and his wife are pregnant." I am going to leave out the words I was thinking. I was just joking with DH about them and wondering if they were TTC. I really need to learn how to keep my mouth shut because with friends and family I say their name and THEY get pregnant NOT ME!!! I have to say at that point my mood was ruined. Then we get to the dinner I am trying my hardest to compose myself and first thing I see walking into the restraunt are two 5 month pregnant mothers. They are taking pictures with their DH's and holding their beautiful pregnant bellies. Normally I would be ok with this but with the earlier blow of friends pregnant it was too much. I told DH to go get me a drink. Well the kicker about these two pregnant ladies is they were the wives to the grooms two BFFs from HS. SO THEY WERE EVERY WHERE!!! They also wanted us to go have lunch with them on Saturday before the wedding and I told DH there is no way I can do that. Ok back to rehearsal dinner, well after they finally seated the party i realized that were giving us free wine. Well I was feeling terrible (poor me) so I did the only thing I could think of. I filled myself with liquid courage. Poor DH had to deal with me, he said he was torn because he knew why I was doing it. I tend to be a very loud person when I have a little to much beverage.
Saturday was wedding day. Well we got to the church right on time. I got to talk to one of the wives of the brass emsemble that was playing. Of course the topic of children came up, and my response now is, "when the good lord blesses us" thank goodnesss she left that one alone. Then right before the preludes started we went to go sit down. Well guess who were handing out programs. None other then the two perfectly 5 month pregnant mommies. They were telling the other girl how their due dates were the same week. BLAH!!! It is soo terrible that I can't be happy for them. Wedding was beautiful!! Well as the dinner was ending I was feeling bad that I hadn't talk to these ladies because under any normal situation I would but I just couldn't do it this time. I really felt terrible that I had avoided them through out this entire weekend.
Thank you God for DH because I was not the most fun to be around this weekend. I was an emotional wreck with a cold(or whatever it is). I am so glad to be home where there are no pregnant bellies tanting me. Maybe it is the 2 1/2 year mark that is haunting me or a new nephew. I am so ready to have my life change and have someone call me MOM.
TTC TTC #1 since June 2006, Me 28 & DH 29, IVF #1 ICSI and AH ~ BFN, IVF #2 Jan, DX ~ DOR not POF, TTC w/ the assitance of Traditional Chinese Medicine "To get through the hardest Journey we need to take only one step at a time, but we must keep on stepping." ~Chinese Proverb