Really Depressed!

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Registered: 10-14-2008
Really Depressed!
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Tue, 10-28-2008 - 9:37am

I am soo frustrated and depressed today.  AF was supposed to show up last Tuesday 10/21, had normal symptoms that it was coming and everything and prepared myself for what I knew was coming.  Well it didn't show that day and I am NEVER late.  The first couple of days, I didn't get my hopes up and was expecting AF any day.  When it hadn't shown up by Thursday I decided to POAS and got a BFN.  I also tested on Friday and got a BFN.  I thought that I would wait a couple of days and test again if AF didn't come.  Sunday, AF still hadn't come so I tested again and still BFN.  By this point and time my pre-menstrual symptoms went away and everything.  Well yesterday, AF decided to show up.  I really thought this was the month I was finally going to get my BFP.  I haven't slept good in days because of the anticipation and now because I am so depressed.  I just want to give up.      

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Registered: 06-28-2008
Tue, 10-28-2008 - 9:43am
(((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))
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Registered: 09-11-2008
Tue, 10-28-2008 - 12:01pm
( ( ( ( H U G S ) ) ) ) I'm so sorry AF came. I am going through the exact same thing. AF was supposed to come on the 15th. I refuse to POAS because 1) I guarenteed to start once I do and 2) I'm going on vacation and don't want her to come with. sending you P&PT and extra hugs today. We are all here for you.
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Registered: 01-08-2008
Tue, 10-28-2008 - 12:38pm
i'm so sorry. (((hugs))) it's so devastating to finally allow yourself to believe it may have worked, and then finally get AF and a BFN. i'm in the waiting mode right now; AF could come at any time and have a beta scheduled for thurs. we're all here for you.

ana


TTC since Sept '06. Diagnosed w/ PCOS, DH diagnosed with azoospermia Dec '06, TESA Mar '07
IVF/ICSI/AZH#1 Aug'07, BFN (6 usable eggs, 5 embies, 2 transferred, 1st beta=18, 2nd beta=12, 0 made it to blast to freeze)
IVF/ICSI#2:retrieval Nov'07 (w/ fresh TESA), FET sched Jan'08, no embryos to transfer (23 usable eggs, 12 embies, 0 made it to transfer)
IVF/ICSI#3: retrieval Mar'08, FET May'08, BFN (13 usable eggs, 7 fertilized w/ DH sperm= 0 blasts, 6 fertlized w/ DS=3 blasts, all 3 transferred, 1st beta=74, 2nd beta=64, 3rd beta=42)
1st cycle IUI/clomid/donor sperm postponed due to lack of follicular growth on 100mg clomidx5days.

ana

mom to beautiful baby lia.
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Registered: 05-20-2008
Tue, 10-28-2008 - 12:38pm

((((HUGS))))


Same as you I am never late!!

  

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