Stressing myself out!
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|Mon, 01-11-2010 - 11:29am|
I am just driving myself crazy. Last fall, during a routine u/s to check on follicle growth during a Clomid cycle, they found an ovarian cyst (endometrioma) and the RE thinks I may have endometriosis. She suggested a lap to confirm the diagnosis. I didnâ€™t want to do it then and she seemed pretty OK with my decision. I have since been thinking about it non-stop and now, after another unsuccessful cycle, am leaning towards doing the lap. And of course, DH comes home with a story from a friend that they had IF for 2 years, 3 losses, and after a lap to remove mild endo they are now 16 wks p/g and everything is going fine. I know I should have the lap just to ease my mind about what is going on. Because I could have really bad endo, and so we should start thinking about IVF, or it could be mild and removing some of it could help our odds to conceive naturally. I am so scared about it though. I am not usually someone that worries a lot or thinks about the worst case scenario. I guess this whole IF, and TTCAM, journey has made me think of the worst. Just thinking about calling the RE to talk about the lap again and get it scheduled has me feeling sick to my stomach. I hate this! L Not sure where my fear and apprehension is coming from, I guess some small part of me thinks that we got p/g on our own and it should be happening again. I am so frustrated not being able to figure out how to make it happen, but seems like TTC isnâ€™t at all a rational or logical process.
At least if I have the lap I would get off work for awhile, that is a plus side!
Thanks for listening. I am sitting at work thinking about this and just driving myself crazy. No one around work really knows about this and so I am just stewing on it all alone...
Kathleen - TTC #1 since September 2006 (Me - 31, DH - 32). Always remembering our 3 angels.
January 2008 - Chemical P/G, April 2008 - M/C at about 7 weeks, June 2008 - Blighted Ovum
May 2009 - diagnosed Low Protein S and Hetero MTHFR - Baby aspirin, Lovenex injections once BFP. Recently found some ovarian cysts, suspected Endo. FONT>
July 2009 - 1st round 100mg Clomid and IUI = BFN, August 2009 - 2nd round 100mg Clomid = BFN, Sept through ??? - taking a break and going all natural including Vitex and Progesterone cream