Testing the boundaries of makeup

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Registered: 09-29-2010
Testing the boundaries of makeup
Thu, 12-09-2010 - 11:11am

I'm having a bad week. Not only is it the week leading up to my dreaded period (already feel it coming), and the week holiday cards started coming, but I just found out a friend is 4 mths pregnant with her 2nd. Her 1st just turned 1 year old. The unfairness of it all is driving me crazy that I'm beyond ranting. I cried all night last night and need to be on TV in an hour. Also, I'm having a holiday party Sat with this friend and another pregnant person in attendance and I want to cancel it so badly. I just want to crawl under a rock and cry until I'm pregnant. Which of course isn't practical for a number of reasons!

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Thu, 12-09-2010 - 3:26pm

Sending you a ton of (((HUGS))), bad weeks just suck.

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Thu, 12-09-2010 - 4:55pm

I'm sorry you're having such a rough week.

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Thu, 12-09-2010 - 5:54pm
The ultimate unfairness of IF can eat you alive....we've all been there. I even started slipping into that mentality today, and literally have to tell myself to stop it because I am never going to like where it leads. There is never anything good about it....no fairness, whatsoever....so, for me, I just have to do anything I can to avoid those thoughts. See other pregnant women?? Declare in your mind or out loud, that it WILL be you someday. I've just been so determined to focus on what I can do....if this cycle doesn't work out, what/when can I do the next one. IF isn't....personal. Anymore than someone getting cancer, for example. It's biological issues with our bodies and we just have to keep trying to beat them!
KayLa (36)... so many fertility issues betweeen DH and I. Diagnosed with Hashimoto's.
TTC naturally since June 2009
IVF #1 November 2010...BFP....early M/C
FET #1 April 2011...BFP...beta 10, 29, 460.
Heartbeat seen via u/s.
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Registered: 09-29-2010
Fri, 12-10-2010 - 3:39pm

Thanks for all the support. It's so nice to know I'm not alone in all this - even though sometimes it may feel that way with pregnant friends, relatives, etc!

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Sat, 12-11-2010 - 12:03pm

Tons of hugs to you. IF is so hard and especially cruel over the holidays. I swear my poor dog is one step away from being dressed up in a cute holiday outfit.


"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella

TTC since April 2009