Why I hate AF!

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Registered: 06-28-2008
Why I hate AF!
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Sun, 11-02-2008 - 11:35am

Top 10 reasons I hate AF



  1. She makes me cry when I have to tell DH that once again, I am not pregnant.   I know that I've said this before, but the worst part of all of this for me is disappointing DH every month.  When I told him this morning, he turned his head and buried it into his pillow.  I could see his shoulders shaking, and hear him crying.  It breaks my heart that I can't give him a child.  After that he held me for a while and we cried together.  I feel a little better now, but I know that it is going to hit me throughout today.

  2. She makes me sad

  3. She shows up 5 days late, 30 min. after a BFN

  4. She kills my hope for another month

  5. Let's face it, she is kind of gross (really tring hard to laugh and not completely fall apart) 

  6. She hurts, really bad cramps today

  7. She makes DH retreat into his shell for a few days every month.

  8. She is keeping me from something that is my right as a woman.

  9. She has cost me thousands of dollars over the years, and I'm not referring to pads or tampons.

  10. She makes me this fragile, emotional mess that is not at all recognizable as me.

 

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:) Jessica.  Thank you Susan for the beautiful siggy!


 


Jessica 30/ Paul 31/ TTC since 2004,  had very high serum insuin levels, but they are normal on Metrofmin, 1 miscarriage October 2006, *3 cycles of 50 MG Clomid November 2006, december 2006, January 2007  * 3 cycles of 100 mg Clomid February 2007, March 2007, April 2007.  *IUI#1 November 2007 100mg Clomid, and Ovidrel trigger    *IUI#2 December 2007 150mg Clomid and Ovidrel trigger shot    *Took an 8 month break from TTC.  September 2008 was our first month trying again.


 




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Registered: 05-20-2008
Sun, 11-02-2008 - 11:58am

11. She likes to come on holidays or special ocations.


  

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Sun, 11-02-2008 - 12:32pm

12.

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Registered: 05-19-2008
Sun, 11-02-2008 - 1:05pm
13. She makes me feel as if I failed somehow.


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Registered: 01-08-2008
Sun, 11-02-2008 - 2:42pm

14. she makes me feel that my body is betraying me.
15. she is a reminder of what my body is supposed to be able to do.

oh jessica,
(((HUGS))) i'm so sorry you have to deal with this every month. it's something i think we here can all relate to. even though you and dh go through this together, i know the feeling that in the end, it's your body that lets you both know it's a BFN, and so it feels like you're letting dh down. you've gone through so much, and you DESERVE a happy, healthy pg. sending positive thoughts your way...

ana


TTC since Sept '06. Diagnosed w/ PCOS, DH diagnosed with azoospermia Dec '06, TESA Mar '07
IVF/ICSI/AZH#1 Aug'07, BFN (6 usable eggs, 5 embies, 2 transferred, 1st beta=18, 2nd beta=12, 0 made it to blast to freeze)
IVF/ICSI#2:retrieval Nov'07 (w/ fresh TESA), FET sched Jan'08, no embryos to transfer (23 usable eggs, 12 embies, 0 made it to transfer)
IVF/ICSI#3: retrieval Mar'08, FET May'08, BFN (13 usable eggs, 7 fertilized w/ DH sperm= 0 blasts, 6 fertlized w/ DS=3 blasts, all 3 transferred, 1st beta=74, 2nd beta=64, 3rd beta=42)
1st cycle IUI/clomid/donor sperm postponed due to lack of follicular growth on 100mg clomidx5days.

ana

mom to beautiful baby lia.
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Registered: 06-28-2008
Sun, 11-02-2008 - 4:19pm
Awww, thanks Ana.
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Registered: 01-08-2008
Sun, 11-02-2008 - 5:46pm
thanks, jessica! just 1 more day...

ana


TTC since Sept '06. Diagnosed w/ PCOS, DH diagnosed with azoospermia Dec '06, TESA Mar '07
IVF/ICSI/AZH#1 Aug'07, BFN (6 usable eggs, 5 embies, 2 transferred, 1st beta=18, 2nd beta=12, 0 made it to blast to freeze)
IVF/ICSI#2:retrieval Nov'07 (w/ fresh TESA), FET sched Jan'08, no embryos to transfer (23 usable eggs, 12 embies, 0 made it to transfer)
IVF/ICSI#3: retrieval Mar'08, FET May'08, BFN (13 usable eggs, 7 fertilized w/ DH sperm= 0 blasts, 6 fertlized w/ DS=3 blasts, all 3 transferred, 1st beta=74, 2nd beta=64, 3rd beta=42)
1st cycle IUI/clomid/donor sperm postponed due to lack of follicular growth on 100mg clomidx5days.

ana

mom to beautiful baby lia.
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Registered: 06-16-2008
Mon, 11-03-2008 - 9:44am
Jess, ((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))

 

Angela

Me 32, C 34. Toge

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Registered: 03-17-2008
Mon, 11-03-2008 - 1:04pm

9. She makes me feel fat and bloated


10. She rules my wardrobe choices


Franklin and Callan

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Registered: 06-12-2008
Mon, 11-03-2008 - 2:03pm

Jess....I'm sorry AF showed up for you....I was really hoping and praying

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Registered: 06-28-2008
Mon, 11-03-2008 - 7:58pm
thanks everyone for the hugs and the positive thoughts!!!
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