5th IUI and still trying

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Registered: 11-04-2007
5th IUI and still trying
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Sun, 11-04-2007 - 8:07pm

Hi Ladies - this is my very first time on this message board, and I am so grateful to have read all of your very comforting messages. No one I know even remotely understands. They try, but they aren't going through it. I have such torn emotions: I'm not as happy as I should be for my very best friend that got pregnant the first month off of BCP, I can't go to baby showers and always make up an excuse, I can't meet my friends new babies after they are born and I am constantly reminded of my condition when I see pregnant women and little kids in public. It's just like a disease...

It led to problems at work, I couldn't tell them why I had soooo many doctors appts and why I was always distracted, waiting for the call from the Dr's office about my hormone level that day. I was let go (never thought that would happen to me) and have luckily been working successfully in a freelance capacity. Has anyone else had problems at work b/c of this?

Today I had my 5th IUI. First two on Clomid, last three on FSH, and had an early m/c last month - so so painful after almost two years of trying. I'm 31 with unexplained infertility, my husband initially had sperm problems but then he started taking Male Reproductive Factor vitamins bought at Whole Foods and now has super sperm.

Also, earlier this week I started acupuncture and my cycle has been going extremely well, so it's very promising and we are trying to stay positive, as we slowly go broke with treatments.

Sorry if I'm rambling but I've had all this in me for a long time, without being able to let it out openly. I just hope and pray today's procedure worked - and that all the women out there that are dealing with this, will also have their dreams of baby come true...

TTC#1 since Jul 2005; 3 IVF's, 5 IUIs and now making 1 beautiful baby!!!

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Registered: 10-15-2007
Sun, 11-04-2007 - 11:22pm

Hello LoveInside


Welcome to the board, I am new here myself. I am 30 (will be 31 in March) and my husband is 29. I have PCO and my husband has a low sperm count. Its been almost two years since we have been to a specialist. I just needed a break from all the poking and prodding.


Like you, I was missing alot of work to go to my appointments. The company I worked for was very small and any absence was noticed. I started scheduling all my appointments early in the morning and having more than one procedure done at once then heading straight to work. Most times I just wanted to go home and crawl in the bed, but I didnt want to use all my PTO hours. My insurance started paying for less and less testing and it just came to be too much, I was missing work thus losing money to go to appointments that we couldnt afford because I was missing work. I wish there were a specialist that took Saturday appointments because that would have helped alot.

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Registered: 11-04-2007
Mon, 11-05-2007 - 9:27am

Thanks so much for your reply. I am sorry it has been so hard for you. I also pray for a miracle.

Its so good not to feel alone anymore. Good luck to you!

TTC#1 since Jul 2005; 3 IVF's, 5 IUIs and now making 1 beautiful baby!!!

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Registered: 08-10-2007
Mon, 11-05-2007 - 2:14pm

Hi, just wanted to let you know that there are lots of us going through similar situations, where we can't handle baby showers, visiting friends who are pregnant or have new babies, etc. It is so hard feeling so alone going through all this! But you're right that unless you've gone through it, you really won't understand.

Luckily my job has been very understanding. I waited a long time before mentioning anything, then when they scheduled a trip during one of my treatment cycles, I finally told them I'm undergoing treatments for a non-life-threatening medical condition. They didn't ask any more questions and have been great about me missing work for doctor's appts when I have to. It helps that it's a pretty lenient office in general (a small family-owned business).

I'm so sorry to hear about your miscarriage. I truly can't imagine the pain of finally having something you wanted for so long, only to have it taken away from you so quickly. You are very strong for picking back up and trying again.

I do acupuncture as well, and it HAS already helped a bit with what I'm going for (lengthening my short luteal phase). I hope it works for you! We are always here if you need to vent.

Reba


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Registered: 11-04-2007
Mon, 11-05-2007 - 2:44pm

Hi Reba,

Thanks so much for your message. It feels so good not to be alone! I'm glad your office is very understanding, I think it helps to work for a small company. I worked for one of the largest companies in the world, very competitive, everyone was out for themselves. This experience has taught me so much about how unimportant that was, and how important family is. We just want to make ours grow, and to share all the love we have.

thanks for listening.

TTC#1 since Jul 2005; 3 IVF's, 5 IUIs and now making 1 beautiful baby!!!

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Registered: 09-11-2006
Thu, 11-08-2007 - 5:52pm

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Hello and Welcome!


I'm so sorry to hear that you are having IF issues.