Another Newbie in the 2 week wait day 6
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| Sat, 11-17-2007 - 11:05pm |
Hi Everyone
This is my first post here.
I am on day six of the dreaded two week wait. My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for a little over a year. We did three unsuccessful rounds on Clomid and just completed our first round of injections (Protocol was 21 days on the BCP then 14 days of Lupron and the 20 days total on Menopur and Estradiol. I am also using those lovely Prometrium suppositoties! Thanks to you girls who were so candid about the experience....I could so relate!
I am 36 and have never been pregnant. We are one of those couples with totally unexplained infertility. I have great FSH #'s, lots of eggs, ovulate regularly etc. etc. Husband has great counts too. I started this first round of injections with 15 follicles in each ovary. ED was worried about overstimulating so they had me on a super low dose for very long time. The bummer is that while there were so many follicles...only two ended up growing to workable size. I am trying my best to be positive, but it is so hard. Part of me wants to enjoy the fantasy of maybe being pregnant while the other part of me wants to be ready for the disappointment. I am going to do my best to not test prior to Thanksgiving. That would be approx 12 DPO. I just don't want to do that to myself and my loved ones. Especially since a BFN would devastate me as it does every time and then I would start doing the crazy bargaining and delusional thing where I think maybe it is too early. That is followed by spending lots of bucks on a bazillion tests. I don't know if you all can relate but that is my pattern every try. I am also a little bummed about the fact that if I do get a BFN I have to go back on the BCP for another 21 days:(
On a postive note....my older sister who is 43 is about to deliver a healthy baby boy next month! She conceived naturally at 42 and lost the fetus to Trisomy 21. After that she underwent 8 rounds of IUI and two rounds of IVF. Throughout that entire time (I wasn't trying yet) I constantly heard and felt her pain and struggle. My mantra to her was always to tell her that one way or another she was going to be someone's Mommy. I was right and I need to start telling myself the same thing and believing it.
I look forward to chatting with and supporting those of you who would like to connect. Unfortunately, I know a whole lot about fertility drugs, IUI's, IVF's etc as a result of having two sisters who went through it all before me.
Thanks for reading. It helps me so much to stay active and writing and responding in these kinds of forums is super beneficial to me.
:) Kim

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Hello Kim and Welcome to the board!
I'm so very sorry to hear that you are having issues TTC.
Hi, Kim!
I just had to write because I am a Kim, am 34, and have unexplained IF, as well. I have not yet had to do injectables, but had my first IUI a couple weeks ago and like you, am in that 2 ww period. I have to go through this week (Thanksgiving) trying not to stress about it, because I go into the office on 11/26 for a blood pg test. Oh, and I am also on those Prometrium suppositories. Yuck! Anyway, I have to get ready for work, but just wanted to say welcome and best of luck to you! We'll think positive thoughts. =)
Kim
Hi Kim,
Nice to meet you and thank you so much for sharing your story and your sister's success story! Do you mind if I ask, are they both unexplained IF as well? I'm just curious!
Hubby and I are both 29--I have a short luteal phase and he was very low morphology so we have lots of reasons why I've never been pregnant. We've been trying for a year and a half. We didn't tell our families for over a year, then this summer we finally did. It has been helpful to have them support us, but it has been very hard for my only sister. She's 26 and a hypochondriac (sp?), and has pretty much convinced herself that she is not only infertile but that she's experiencing the same feelings of grief that I am, even though she has never tried to conceive before and has no known problems! So I'm very interested in how sisters deal with infertility together.
I hope the rest of your 2ww goes by very quickly and with a happy result at the end. I'm nearing the end of my 2ww and not feeling too optimistic, but you never know. I look forward to getting to know you. :)
Reba
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Hi Reba
Thanks for sharing your story with me!
Sister #1 is eight years older then me. She went through IVF at age 39. She chose IVF for a number of reasons, not all necessarily related to regular infertility issues. First, she was significantly overweight when she decided to get pregnant and as a result experienced irregular periods. Second, she was diagnosed with PCOS. Third, her husband had had a vasectomy before they met and they were afraid that the reversal process coupled w/ her issues would take too long and be unsuccessful. Also, they were both 100% okay with using sperm donor. That leads me to her fourth point. Given that they were using donor sperm and she had some fertility related issues and because she is very impatient and had the money......they went straight to IVF. It is very likely that if she had gotten her weight under control that she would have been successful with the donor sperm using IUI. With all of this said, it worked on the first try and she has a beautiful (now six year old ) son. The family has a hard time remembering that he is not the bio son of her husband because he is the spitting image of them both!
Sister #2 is seven years older then me. She got pregnant naturally and w/o much effort at age 41. Tragically the fetus had Trisomy 21 and she lost the pregnancy at five months. She then tried unsuccessfully for several months to get pregnant on her own Next she turned to ART and did about eight rounds of IUI's w/ and w/o drugs (including the injectables). She then tried her first IVF last Thanksgiving. They implanted four embryo's and none of them took. She was heartbroken and so beaten down! She tried a second and last round of IVF last April at the age of 43. At that time they implanted six embryo's and used the glue. The result was the healthy baby boy that she will deliver next month!
In regards to your question about how sisters deal with infertility, I can only respond with my experience. Sister #2 and I are extremely close. In fact, I am probably closer to her then my mom. She was a second mom to me. I was probably her strongest support during the process I heard everything....the tears, the fears, the hopes and the frustrations. When she hurt, I hurt. When it worked for her, I was elated. While it is hard for me to cope with all my other pregnant friends. I honestly feel nothing but happiness and joy for her. I am going to be her birth coach! I can say that knowing so much, so soon about infertility has been both a curse and a blessing. I too had myself convinced that I was going to have the same issues even though I am seven years younger. Low and behold, here I am. The good part is that I have at least one person who understands EXACTLY what I am going through. Also, she is like a built in advice nurse and fertility expert! I think that I have received exceptionally good care from my RE (who is known to be great, but not all that personable) because I am so well educated and versed on the subject.
Sometimes I wonder if I have psyched myself into the infertility stuff???? Who knows. I am just trying to stay as positive as I can. Throughout sister #2's three year struggle I constantly repeated this mantra to her..."I promise you, somehow, someway, you are going to be a mom, no matter what." I meant it when I said it to her. I also encouraged her to pursue the adoption option which she did. If only I could make myself believe.
Hang in there with your wait. You just never know if this could be the time it worked. My sister called back the clinic three times to make sure they weren't wrong or confused. Over three years she heard no over 22 times. The 23rd time was a yes.
Keep me posted. It helps me a lot to hear from others. It really helps to get me outside of myself for a minute. Thanks!!!
Kim B.
Hi Kim:)
Thanks for the message. Sounds like we are in identical situations. Are you sure we aren't twins:) I can take a blood test on Monday as well. I am absolutely sitting on my hands to not go get a HPT. I keep telling myself that I owe it to my husband and family to not "possibly" be useless on Thanksgiving. When I get a BFN I am at first devastated, then I start bargaining and thinking....maybe I tested too early. Anyway, you know how the story goes. I am also doing the crazy obsessing thing where I keep asking myself if I am having symptoms. I do this every time and every time I seem to psych myself up for a BFN. So I am trying to stay positive and I will keep my fingers crossed for you too!
Take Care:)
Kim B.
Wow, okay, that's just creepy. Those are all the same things I have been feeling/thinking. I will NOT let myself test at home. I just decided. It's too depressing. I will MAKE myself wait until Monday!!! I just don't want to see that one single line. Plus, those tests are expensive! Don't want to waste any more of them. I think it's very smart of you to wait until after Turkey day. Yes, you don't want to be rendered useless. And I am totally with you in that I'm going about my day and suddenly think, was that a cramp? is that a blemish? sore boobs? (All symptoms of an upcoming period?!) Or I suppose some of those could be symptoms of pregnancy, too.
Anyhoo--I'm off to get ready for school.
BEST OF LUCK TO YOU! Try and enjoy your Turkey Day and promise not to test! We can wait it out!!!!
Kim C.
Hi Kim
Your message made me laugh and not feel so alone. Thanks! I promise. I will not test tomorrow. You too! I do have to confess that I remembered earlier today that I have a contraband HPT hidden in the trunk of my car from my last maniacal bout of testing. Pathetic! *In the sort of Friends episode/ Seinfeld episode sort of way!
What are you studying in school? I miss school. If we were not so busy not getting pregnant I would seriously consider going to Law School. I think I told you that I have my Master's in Social Work? I would love to do Dependency Law (represent the kids in foster care). Unfortunately I would make less money doing that then doing what I do now and have the law school bills to boot. We will see....
Have a great Thanksgiving. Amongst other things, i am grateful for all the support and budding friendships I am getting here. Thanks!
Kim B.
Hey, Kim B. Kim C., here. =) Happy Thanksgiving! Just checking my messages before we head over to my folks'. Yes, we are a couple of Seinfeld chicks, that is for sure! My HPT has been calling me, too! Today is day 26 for me... 2 months ago I started on day 24, last month day 28. So really, I need to wait it out until at least Sunday, then Monday is my official test day, as is yours. WE CAN DO IT! (Believe me, I'm saying that mainly so I will embrace the idea, too). This waiting is such torture. I try to ready myself for the negative result although I fantasize all the time about getting the positive. What does that FEEL like? How will I tell my family & friends? Will my body start feeling different? But again, I don't want to get too caught up in that, because I don't want to crumble when I found out I'm not.
Oh, so I am actually a teacher, I teach 5th grade. I love it! This is my 10th or 11th year, I think. I am at a new school this year and change was a good thing, although I loved my last school, too. I only have 23 students this year, which is totally unheard of. I'm used to having 30! My mom works in a law firm, but doesn't speak highly of any of the attorneys there! They are all very arrogant and work-a-holics.
Anyway, have a great long, relaxing weekend and let's try not to obsess! It's a test of our inner strength, and MAN, we are strong!
=) Kim C.
Hi Kim
Hope you had a great Thanksgiving! Thanks for the support. I made it through w/o testing!! I hope that you did too. I parked my car super far away to discourage running out for the contraband HPT:) We live in San Francisco....that should give you an idea of the walk. Where do you live? I am deducing Alaska from your email address?
My husband is gone for the rest of the w/e so it is just me and the dog. I am trying to stay busy and not obsess. He went to Virginia for a baptism. He is the godfather. The friend is a really close one and they used ART as well to get pregnant. I am totally happy for them. Unlike my usual feelings of jealousy. I guess when I understand all the work they went through, it is easier then the other situations where the couple "wasn't even really trying!" I didn't go because we worried about where I would be in the injection process.....Anyway....Monday is fast approaching, but not fast enough!
Thanks again for your note. It made me chuckle and gave me the encouragement I needed to enjoy the day and appreciate all that I do have to be thankful for! Have a great long weekend!
Kim B.
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