Bad day...

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Registered: 09-11-2006
Bad day...
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Tue, 11-13-2007 - 11:23pm

Sorry everyone,


I just don't have it in me to post happy things right now.  Tomorrow I'll feel better.  AF is due tomorrow and I got a BFN tonight.  Big Surprise, but I was so freakin' hopeful.  Ugh.


Found out today that a friend (20) is pg with #3 in 3 years.  Something's just aren't fair...

 

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Registered: 11-17-2007
In reply to: cl_karlaking
Sat, 11-17-2007 - 11:11pm

I so understand what you are talking about. Especially the pregnant friend part. I have someone who used to be super close to me (maid of honor at my wedding) who is no longer much of a friend. She met a guy and quickly married and our friendship pretty much fell to the wayside. To make matters more difficult, she works with me and we sit about 20 feet from one another. Anyway, she is pregnant and told what seems like the entire office (but not me). I feel really dumb because she along with most of my other office mates know what I am going through with infertility treatments. I feel like she is telling people not to tell me because I will fall apart or something. It is really hurting me. She should know me well enough to know I would be happy for her and gracious....anyway, I just feel dumb and jealous and a little alone.

Hang in there. You aren't alone!

Kim

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Registered: 09-11-2006
In reply to: cl_karlaking
Sun, 11-18-2007 - 2:11pm

((Kim))


I'm so very sorry that you are going through this with your "seemingly" best friend.

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Registered: 11-17-2007
In reply to: cl_karlaking
Sun, 11-18-2007 - 3:35pm

Thanks for the words of encouragement. I hope the same is out there waiting for you on the horizon:) Sometimes it just feels good to be mad. I spend so much time trying to not let onto others how much I am hurting around this whole infertility thing. The last thing I want is pity.....also I get so tired of hearing all of the advice. You know the "relax and stop trying," "I have an aunt who got pregnant at 50" etc

Hope you have a great Sunday. I am in the middle of obsessing about whether or not I feel any signs of impending pregnancy. Still have a whole week to wait. I am starting to get bummed though because i am feeling my typical PMS symptoms. In the past, I have tricked myself into believing they might be early pregnancy signs...even though I know for a fact that it is way too early to be feeling anything!

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Registered: 09-11-2006
In reply to: cl_karlaking
Sun, 11-18-2007 - 4:10pm

Kim,


I had that cycle you were explaining...this time around.

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Registered: 11-17-2007
In reply to: cl_karlaking
Sun, 11-18-2007 - 8:30pm

Well....actually, never getting AF may be a good thing. I know it sounds strange but, perhaps there have been issues with your lining, and maybe it hasn't been just right in the past. I try to tell myself that when something unusual happens that it might end up being diagnostic and maybe just maybe the thing that makes the next cycle stick. I have a history of very short, but very regular cycles....so maybe....I can hope and you can too.

Have you had a recent US? Is this something that is covered by your insurance or is it a huge out of pocket expense? If it is covered, it might give you a good glimpse into what is going on with your lining and why AF never came!

I am going to cross my fingers and toes that this winds up being a good thing for you and that this next cycle will be the one!

Have a great night!

Kim B.

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Registered: 09-11-2006
In reply to: cl_karlaking
Mon, 11-19-2007 - 12:17am

Hi Kim,


I had an u/s about a month ago.

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Registered: 11-17-2007
In reply to: cl_karlaking
Tue, 11-20-2007 - 12:36pm

Sunday evening after the

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Registered: 03-24-2006
In reply to: cl_karlaking
Tue, 11-20-2007 - 1:29pm

Wow!!!!!


Seriously unbelievable!!!!

 


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Registered: 09-11-2006
In reply to: cl_karlaking
Tue, 11-20-2007 - 5:40pm

Did you smack her?


I would have.

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Registered: 07-19-2007
In reply to: cl_karlaking
Tue, 11-27-2007 - 11:03am

Hi,


Question for all of you who can't get pregnant...Have you all gone to see an endocrinologist? (not someone that works with infertility)


I was infertile for about 5 years. Went on 2 years of infertility treatment for nothing. After I did my research I diagnosed myself with a pituitary tumor which was making a mess of all my hormones and therefore couldn't get pregnant..(one of the problems)


After I had it removed...my body came back to normal and got pregnant 6 months after surgery. Had my son and 2 months later got pregnant again with my daughter.


Sometimes I think that people that are going through infertility is because they or their doctors need to figure out what is wrong with their bodies first. (some doctors unfortunately want to make money with infertility treatments and that is the only thing they care about). And some doctors will tell you there is nothing wrong with you when if fact there is a lot wrong. Like it happened to me.


Just a thought.


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