Hi Im also new

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Registered: 11-30-2007
Hi Im also new
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Fri, 11-30-2007 - 9:48am

Hi


I have 3 gorgeous children and I am 37 years old.My husband and I decided that 4 would be the perfect number for our family and so last Dec we started trying for number 4.


It took 6 months for me to fall preg with number 1 and I took one course of clomid.


Number 2 and 3 happened the next month after I went off the pill.


So I assumed there would be no complications having a 4th! Boy was I ever wrong.


I fell preg straight away and test showed very faint pos.Went for bloods and they were pos.


After about 7 weeks started spotting and went to OBGYN who did ultrasound and we found it was blighted ovum.


I was upset but still optimistic.


A week later I woke up in the night with the most excruciating cramps and pain that I have never experienced in my life and it turns out ...to make a long story short that I had a ruptured ectopic pregancy as well. I almost died that night and after that I got blood poisoning as well and was in ICU for 2 weeks.I lost the right tube.


I often think that I may have had twins.Doc said he has never seen that happen before and that I was his first case in all his years!


Well I have been trying ever since to fall preg again but its just not happening.Combination of my body being out of whack.I dont think Im ovulating and AF is all over the place.I spot in the middle of the month,have 12 day periods and sometimes 2 in one month.


I have tried reflexology and now I am on Clomid.I figure if it doesnt work I still have 3 gorgeous children and Im getting too old anyway.There is still however a hole inside me that isnt going to be satisfied until I hold a newborn again.Its become like an obsession and its making me nuts.


No one understand that its the only thing on my mind all the time.Im becoming like a drug addict.


Anyone else feel this way?The odds are so stacked against me and Im racing against the clock...sigh!

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Registered: 11-08-2007
Fri, 11-30-2007 - 2:01pm
I understand when you say that you feel like a drug addict.
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Registered: 11-30-2007
Sat, 12-01-2007 - 12:57am

I know what you mean.So many people that I come across take their kids for granted and maybe I did too until recently.Now I see them and people who are struggling with infertility in a whole new light.I cannot begin to imagine how hard it must be to not have ANY kids and struggle.If this is what its doing to me for number four,it must completely mess up your mind with number 1.


Im just so concerned as Im going to be 38 next year and that brings with it a whole lot of other issues regarding pregnancy.Also my other kids are going to be another year older and I dont want the gap to be too big as my husband had that growing up and he said he was brought up as an only child and completely hated it.Thats why he wants a big family!


I think I have to set a limit...say maybe within the next 6 months and then give it up:-(.....I so want to be pregnant again...

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Registered: 05-11-2000
Sun, 12-02-2007 - 12:45am
Welcome to the board!!
I'm so sorry to hear about all the trouble you've been having conceiving...it makes my complaints look petty!!
But I totally know what you
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Registered: 11-30-2007
Sun, 12-02-2007 - 1:15am

Thanks Heidi!


Whats your story??

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Registered: 09-11-2006
Sun, 12-02-2007 - 11:54pm

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Hello and Welcome!


I'm so very sorry to hear of your losses, and I'm hoping that you have a BFP very soon.

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Registered: 11-30-2007
Mon, 12-03-2007 - 12:08am

Hi and thanks for the welcome.


7 years! I admire you both.The break was probably good for you.Fresh start etc etc!


Good luck to you too!


Think I ovulated yesterday as I saw what looked like egg white mucus but with a bit of brown tinged blood. Husband is away tho now for 3 days so did the deed last night and hoping for the best!


Andy