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Wed, 10-06-2010 - 10:25am

Hi, I'm new here - I haven't really lurked here, but I would like to meet some women who completely understand the frustration of infertility.

My story is long, I'll share it later, the short of it is that dh and I (both 33) have been ttc our first since 1999. I miscarried twins in 1999, then we finally got pregnant again 7 years later and I miscarried again, then it took us 3 more years and our little boy was stillborn at 35 weeks in March of this year. We were diagnosed with unexplained infertility in 2000.

We are on our 4th cycle of trying since our last loss, and I'm so mentally beat. I want to believe that it will happen for us, but I know deep down, that it likely won't happen for us for a very long time, and that hurts so bad. We are using Clomid and Metformin, I normally ovulate late each month, but there is no reason they can find as to why. Even with clomid, I still ovulate several days to a week late. Currently, I'm cd14 and my opk is not yet positive... based on the past couple of cycles, I'm hoping to ovulate this weekend.

I hate the jealousy... I'm much better with pregnant people than I used to be, but I still have that immediate twinge of jealousy each time I see a pregnant person. The board I mainly hang out at has so many women, they come and get pregnant quickly and while I'm happy they've gotten pregnant (we've each experienced loss) I can't help but be jealous.

The biggest thing for me lately... EVERYONE seems to need to stick in their two cents... "if you would just quit trying..." and "it'll happen when the time is right..." like I don't already know that! I just don't want to hear it!!!!! ESPECIALLY from the people who feel the need to say it!

Well, hopefully I'll get to know you all a little better!


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Registered: 11-02-2009
Wed, 10-06-2010 - 1:06pm

Hello Torie,

Tamar

TTC #1 since Feb '09 with Unexplained Infertility: SA's all ok; b/w and HSG ok; Lap Mar '10 - mild endo on outside of right tube/uterus removed but not considered eno

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Wed, 10-06-2010 - 1:27pm

Hello.. im sorry you have had such a horribly rough go. I know theres probably nothing that can be said to make you feel better, but do know you are in good supportive understanding company here. I've pretty well just started my journey, we've been trying since Jan. We have a male factor with my dh's morphology being in the very low percentile. Anyways Im wishing you luck and hoping you have a miracle turn around here. GL

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Wed, 10-06-2010 - 2:04pm
Thanks ladies, while I'm hopeful that we'll get pregnant soon, past practice tells me that it will likely take a few years.
We did clomid cycles years ago, I do ovulate on them, I just don't seem to be able to match egg and sperm... ugh!!!
Although this is only my 4th cycle with clomid this time, total, it's my 18th cycle over all our years. Although this is only my second cycle with also using metformin, so I'm a tad more hopeful, I guess.
Thanks for the luck, I've figured out that getting pregnant is pure luck, so I totally need all the luck I can get!!!


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Registered: 03-26-2010
Wed, 10-06-2010 - 2:28pm

Hey Torie,

Me - (Amanda 27) My dh-- 26 We have been ttc # 1 for 3yrs 5mths My dh has severe oligospermia, Ivf with icsi is our only option. Ivf # 1--- failed Ivf # 2--- failed Ivf # 3-- hopefully in March 2013 at a new clinic!

 

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Registered: 11-02-2009
Wed, 10-06-2010 - 4:35pm

Are you working with a reproductive endocrinologist for treatment?

Tamar

TTC #1 since Feb '09 with Unexplained Infertility: SA's all ok; b/w and HSG ok; Lap Mar '10 - mild endo on outside of right tube/uterus removed but not considered eno

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Registered: 04-13-2010
Wed, 10-06-2010 - 6:02pm

I am not currently working with an RE, but I have in the past - the other 14 clomid cycles were with an RE, and 3 of them were IUI. They told me that if clomid was going to work, that typically it works within 6 months.


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Registered: 11-02-2009
Wed, 10-06-2010 - 6:58pm

I'm sorry you're so frustrated.

Tamar

TTC #1 since Feb '09 with Unexplained Infertility: SA's all ok; b/w and HSG ok; Lap Mar '10 - mild endo on outside of right tube/uterus removed but not considered eno

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Registered: 04-12-2010
Wed, 10-06-2010 - 7:48pm

Hello. I am sorry to offer my greetings to you so late. I just got back from vacation. I am sorry to hear that you have to be here and I am very sorry to hear about your losses.

It can be so frustrating when no one can give a reason why things don't work. I know I needed something, something to blame, something to research to feel like I was doing something. Hopefully being here will at least make you feel somewhat emotionally better. I know the women here have offered such joy and security for me.

Dixie

"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella

TTC since April 2009

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Registered: 04-13-2010
Thu, 10-07-2010 - 9:54am
thanks - you hit it exactly - I need something! at least if I have something to blame and something to google, I'd feel like I was progressing! ugh! I'm just such an impatient person! And you know what's funny... we conceived Landon last year in August... we were not on any meds, and I had only had 3 periods the whole year, last one being in June, I ovulated on like day 60 or something I felt it coming and told dh that we "should try this weekend" and I actually got pregnant with my sticky bean. I keep thinking that maybe we should just stop doing things to help, but really, how can we???? I mean, I'd totally feel like it would NEVER happen if my periods went back to 3ish a year, KWIM!!!


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Registered: 02-22-2009
Thu, 10-07-2010 - 10:48am

Hi Torie,

Welcome to the board- your story really grabbed my attention... you have been through so much, and my heart goes out to you and your Dh... I am so incredibly sorry for your losses.

Finally pregnant after 3 yrs of ttc and 3 losses. Lilypie Pregnancy tickers EDD: 9/18/11

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