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|Wed, 10-06-2010 - 10:25am|
Hi, I'm new here - I haven't really lurked here, but I would like to meet some women who completely understand the frustration of infertility.
My story is long, I'll share it later, the short of it is that dh and I (both 33) have been ttc our first since 1999. I miscarried twins in 1999, then we finally got pregnant again 7 years later and I miscarried again, then it took us 3 more years and our little boy was stillborn at 35 weeks in March of this year. We were diagnosed with unexplained infertility in 2000.
We are on our 4th cycle of trying since our last loss, and I'm so mentally beat. I want to believe that it will happen for us, but I know deep down, that it likely won't happen for us for a very long time, and that hurts so bad. We are using Clomid and Metformin, I normally ovulate late each month, but there is no reason they can find as to why. Even with clomid, I still ovulate several days to a week late. Currently, I'm cd14 and my opk is not yet positive... based on the past couple of cycles, I'm hoping to ovulate this weekend.
I hate the jealousy... I'm much better with pregnant people than I used to be, but I still have that immediate twinge of jealousy each time I see a pregnant person. The board I mainly hang out at has so many women, they come and get pregnant quickly and while I'm happy they've gotten pregnant (we've each experienced loss) I can't help but be jealous.
The biggest thing for me lately... EVERYONE seems to need to stick in their two cents... "if you would just quit trying..." and "it'll happen when the time is right..." like I don't already know that! I just don't want to hear it!!!!! ESPECIALLY from the people who feel the need to say it!
Well, hopefully I'll get to know you all a little better!