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|Wed, 09-11-2013 - 11:28am|
My name is Christin and I am 25 years old, I have been married for 6 years in November.....for the last 9 months I have struggled to gain some sort of normallcy with my fertility. Since I was 17 years old I had been told that when I wanted to have children that I would need help from my doctor because ever since the day my boyfriend left for Iraq I never had a regular cycle again; and at the time was no big deal because I was not any where near ready to have children. So as the years went on my boyfriend at the time became my husband, and after a few years I thought that we were ready but he wasn't so I waited again before I brought up the subject again.......and then became the struggle to find out when we were ready.....I have always been but he hasn't. Last Christmas I decided I would look into the plan my doctor had for me on my journey of infertility, well it included Progesterone to get my to have a period and then Clomid to get me to ovulate....which I was not doing at all. So started the journey of hot flashes, mood swings, the HORRIBLE cramps, and not to mention the heavy bleeding.......it was horrible. During all of this I also had to stay in constant contact with my doctors office to tell them when I started my period and if I had a positive ovulation test and of course the monthly blood tests and last month I had an HSG done. I am still fighting the battle with my husband about when he thinks we will be ready.....I know that we are both young but with everything that I have had to do just to become "normal" who knows how long it's going to be just to even get pregnant. I feel alone, he doesn't understand he thinks that this whole thing is easy peasy, that I should just get over it. I don't know anyone who is going through what I am and I am constantly seeing all of my friends on Facebook sharing their good news and the endless pictures.....but how do I show that I am happy for someone else when I am dying inside?! I guess I am really just here to find other women who may be in the same circumstance as me, because at this point I am ready to completely give up.