Struggling...needing support

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Struggling...needing support
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Thu, 08-26-2010 - 7:23am

Hi! Like the rest of you on this board I'm struggling with infertility. Here's some background on me and our struggle (sorry it's so long):

DH and I waited until we were financially stable and got a good jump start on home renovations before TTC. It's been 9 months and nothing. I was diagnosed with Endometriosis in 2002 and a cyst severed one of my tubes. Recently, I had an HSG done and they got a little dye leakage from my tube, but they said it's "partially blocked and/or twisted. A vaginal ultrasound was done and I'm not ovulating and was diagnosed with PCOS. I was referred to a fertility specialist and he said he "thinks" my tube is fine and that I might have a mild case of PCOS. Went through the first round of Clomid this month and was devastated yesterday with the news that the Clomid worked great for the left side...the one that has no plumbing. The right side is apparently not as healthy of an ovary and only had one follicle at 14mm. Now they are discussing injectables for next month. I did OK on the Clomid...a little dizzy, more emotional but I handled it well...I think. I am worried how bad the side effects are going to be for the injectables!

It's just all so overwhelming and I'm so sick of hearing things like "relax, it'll happen" and "don't worry, just give it time". DH tries to be reassuring, but we all know that there's nothing anyone can say right now to make us feel any better. I guess I just need some support and I know the women on this board can understand exactly what I'm thinking and feeling since you are going through it too.

Thanks for reading and baby dust to all!

Robin

Mom to 2-year old twin boys, Dawson & Devin

TTC #3

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Thu, 08-26-2010 - 11:33am


I'm sorry you are finding yourself on the TTC w/IF ride- it is a tough place to be. It sounds like you've already had some setbacks because of your tubes. I also had a problem with both of my tubes and had surgery at the end of March to hopefully fix them. I'm on clomid this cycle and will be moving onto IUI next month if this one doesn't get me my BFP. I don't have experience with the injectables but a lot of women around here do so I imagine they can fill you in. I know a lot of them have experienced BFPs during injectable cycles and I hope that is the case for you!

Andrea

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Thu, 08-26-2010 - 12:58pm

I'm so sorry you're going through this.

Tamar

TTC #1 since Feb '09 with Unexplained Infertility: SA's all ok; b/w and HSG ok; Lap Mar '10 - mild endo on outside of right tube/uterus removed but not considered eno

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Thu, 08-26-2010 - 2:43pm

What problems did you have with your tubes? What surgery did they do? There seems to be some surgeries to repair tubes, but I'm not sure if they can rebuild a tube. My specialist hasn't mentioned these yet, but I'm hoping that might be an option. I know I can do IVF, but that's the one thing my insurance doesn't cover.

Good luck with your Clomid cycle!

Robin


TTC #1 since Dec 2009



  • Me - 30, DH - 35

  • Endo, possible PCOS, one tube, a body that hates me!

  • February 2002 - cyst removal, left tube severed, discovered Endo

  • June 2010 - ultrasound, no mature follicles

  • July 2010 - HSG, tube partially blocked and/or twisted.

Robin

Mom to 2-year old twin boys, Dawson & Devin

TTC #3

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Thu, 08-26-2010 - 3:10pm


Hi Robin- an HSG revealed what they called "cobble-stoning" at the part where my tubes meet up with the ovaries. The "cobble-stoning" indicated blockages of some sort, so the dr went in and did a laproscopic procedure to see what was going on. He discovered that where the tubes turn into fingerlike projections that sort of embrace the ovary, the tube fingers were clubbed. So instead of the egg being pushed from the ovary down the tubes, my eggs were getting stuck right where they were released and never made it into the tubes. The bad news was that all the months of trying to get pg were in vain, the good news is that when he poked around he was able to get the fingery things to release and unclub. He feels confident that they are now how they need to be, but if I'm not pg by the end of the year, we will do another HSG to make sure they didn't "re-club." If they did re-club, our only option will be IVF. Hoping that won't be the case...

Andrea

Lilypie Maternity tickers


May Baby

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Thu, 08-26-2010 - 6:13pm

I am sorry that you are struggling getting your sticky BFP. It sure takes a toll, doesn't it.

I used Femara instead of Clomid and did not have any side effects. Sometimes Femara works if Clomid doesn't. We chose to go directly to Femara. I did get PG but it ended in ectopic. When we try again we will use Femara again and if not PG again within 1/2 months we will try injectables.

Good luck!

Christy
TTC 1st child since 2006
June 16, 2010: IUI w/ Femara BFP (Ectopic - Methotrexate shot) RE sidelined me until November cycle for next IUI :(

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Thu, 08-26-2010 - 7:52pm
Our story was very much like yours we put house and a business before all else and long and behold I was just recently told that i have a low reserve and poor response to stim meds. My husband said that i was a bear on the clomid but i can tell you the worst side effect of stim meds for me was the hot flashes. They came all hours of the day and night, another little one was that they made me a little loopy sometimes hare to concintrate. But all in all not to bad but take it slow don't try to over think every little thing you will spend a lot of time crying by yourself. I have used the clomid for about six or seven times and just recently had our first IVF cycle with a BFN. So not sure what step were going to do next. Best of luck and hang in there.
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Thu, 08-26-2010 - 9:22pm

I am so sorry to hear you are having such trouble, but thankful you found here. I know on a personal level while having the girls here does not fix my problems it helps me deal better with the emotional issues. IF is such an all encompassing situation that it is hard to not make it your world. I get so upset when people say relax. This is a disease, a sickness. We cannot just relax away our problems and it is so hurtful for people to just say that without thinking.


Hopefully you can find the support here to make this journey slightly easier.

Dixie


"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella


M/C November 2009


Metformin December 2009


Clomid #1 50mg April 2010 = no O :-(


Clomid #2 100mg May 2010 = BFN


Clomid #3 150mg July 2010 = BFN


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Dixie


"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella


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Fri, 08-27-2010 - 10:52am

Well, I went for another ultrasound this AM and the right didn't grow any more, so we're done for this cycle. I have to stick myself with Ovidrel to clear out the left ovary and I guess I'll get a period in a couple weeks. Then they are putting me on Gonal-F. I'm hoping that I handle it OK and that I don't have really bad side effects. And that it WORKS! I definitely already experienced a bit of loopiness, so hopefully that doesn't get too much worse on the injectables.

Thanks for all of your support and kind words. It is definitely hard to keep your chin up when you are facing such a difficult struggle, but knowing you are not alone helps a bit.

Does anyone else find it incredibly rude for a person to bring a baby into a fertility clinic? I just ask because I was sitting in the waiting room on Wed and this girl came in with her baby and was sitting in the waiting room and bottle-feeding it. I was pretty upset about it, but then I thought maybe it's just the hormones. It just seemed rude to me...

Robin


TTC #1 since Dec 2009



  • Me - 30, DH - 35
  • Endo, possible PCOS, one tube, a body that hates me!
  • February 2002 - cyst removal, left tube severed, discovered Endo
  • June 2010 - ultrasound, no mature follicles
  • July 2010 - HSG, tube partially blocked and/or twisted.

Robin

Mom to 2-year old twin boys, Dawson & Devin

TTC #3

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Fri, 08-27-2010 - 2:23pm

Robin,


I just read your post and some of the replys.

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Fri, 08-27-2010 - 9:27pm

Oh that is really weird that someone was allowed to bring their baby to the fertility clinic. I know the first RE I went to sent out letter stating that people were not allowed to bring their children as it is a sensative subject and can upset other patients. I just assumed all RE's followed the same idea.


I would find it rude and inappropriate if someone had their child in there with them while I was there.

Dixie


"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella


M/C November 2009


Metformin December 2009


Clomid #1 50mg April 2010 = no O :-(


Clomid #2 100mg May 2010 = BFN


Clomid #3 150mg July 2010 = BFN


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Dixie


"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella


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