TTC 2 years in December
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TTC 2 years in December
| Fri, 11-09-2007 - 12:03pm |
I am just beginning my journey into the infertility world of testing and doctors and referrals. I am 21 years old and I have been married since I was 19. We have been trying for our first since our wedding night. Nothing. For two years. I did not want to undergo testing and doctors appointments so I decided to wait as long as I did in hopes that something happens. I have received all the necessary paperwork for LH/FSH testing, hysterical, Shady Grove fertility consult. I am awaiting for my husbands semen analysis to come back from his doctor then I can start probably this time exactly next month. I am trying to get over all of the depression of waiting so long and watching all of my friends carry their first baby, watch them be born and on their way to their second when I am just trying to get my first. My husband told me if he had his own biological child that we would be able to adopt, which is my dream. ( I am sure he will adopt even if we didn't have our own, but I really don't think I could wait until I am thirty and I don't have $20,000 for invitro.) All I think about every morning when I wake up and every night before I go to bed is being able to experience pregnancy and carrying and delivering my own child. Don't et me started on watching the health discovery channel because whenever I see someone else being pregnant I cry. I cry inside at every baby shower I have been to and probably every pregnant person I see walking by. My husband probably thinks I am a nutcase. :) I just want to have a baby and every one I know can do it and even the people I have talked to about being pregnant always become pregnant. I am tried the teas and the acupuncture and don't get me started on all of the pills. I feel horrible for the people who have been trying for like 5 or even 10 years with no results. I don't know how much longer I am able to take it. I even wish I have miscarried because at least I know I am able to get pregnant. I am only 21 years old it shouldn't be this hard. The only medical thing I think might be causing this is hpv and my surgery to remove precancerous cells. My period has been regular since I began at 12, I have never missed one and I have never been late. I just hope it isn't my husband who is having problems because I would never want him to feel the guilt and sadness that I feel. I am usually such a happy person who is very outgoing and make someone has some help to offer me but the doctors don't give me enough time to talk before rushing me out the door. Please please pray for me

Hello and Welcome,
I'm so very sorry to hear about your issues with TTC.
Hi, there.
Well, I will be completely honest and tell you when I first started to read your post, I was thinking, give me a break, she's only 21, she has a whole decade of trying before her biological clock even starts ticking! But at the same time, I read your words and your emotions are very real and then I couldn't believe it, you wrote the exact words I have thought in my head but never had the guts to say out loud! It was the part about miscarrying. I am 34 and have never been pregnant. Not even a scare. I have been on the pill since I was 17, though, and only just went off this January. I guess I am a late bloomer, in that I only got married last year. But yes, I don't even know if I can GET pregnant. We have been through 3 months of testing & treatment and everything has come back normal. Great news, right? But we STILL don't know why we're not pregnant!!! It's maddening. The past 2 months have been the most aggressive treatment, with lots of Dr. appts. and procedures. I had my first IUI last Friday. I am praying every moment of the day. I have already decided that if it doesn't work, that we're taking a break for a while, because all of this is just too stressful and has taken it's toll on me mentally & physically (not to mention, expensive).
Anyway, I feel guilty for my initial judgment--it's age discrimination! This should absolutely be a judgement-free zone, so shame on me. I wish you all the best and thanks for saying out loud what I didn't have the courage to.
Kim
I know I am only 21
Hi and thanks for sharing your infertility journey with us. :) I hope the rest of it is short and the doctors are able to help you get pregnant soon. Yes, 21 is young, but when you're ready for a family, you're ready, regardless of age. I feel like kind of a late bloomer because I've been with my hubby for 11 years and we just started ttc 1.5 years ago (we're 29). And infertility happens regardless of age...with what's wrong with each of us, we would have been just as infertile whether we started trying when we were 18 or whether we started now.
I know it's hard to watch it happen for everyone around you. I wish I knew the magic words to make those feelings of jealousy, anger, guilt, etc. go away. I have them too and it's awful. My best friends are pregnant and I feel like I have no one to talk to about what I'm going through. It took them a couple months to get pregnant.
I know exactly what you mean about miscarrying--it's an awful thought but I've had it too! I wish I had been pregnant in the past and miscarried, then at least I'd know I can get pregnant! Now I just have this feeling stretching before me, wondering whether I will ever be able to even get pregnant.
Good luck with your tests and I'm glad you're hubby's stuff is all good. :)
Reba
Remembering o
Hey
So I did the HSG ( Hysterosalpingnogram) and the blood for for LH and all that. EVERYTHING is normal. I don't understand the problem. There is no blockage in my tubes, no hormone deficiancy no semen problems. My period is regular as regular gets. The only history I have had was the surgery to remove Precancer off my cervix 2 years ago as well as ovarian cysts since