New here - FET in September

Hi, I'm Nichole. I'm 29 and my husband and I have been TTC for 2 years. It’s hard to find people whom I can relate to as I don't personally know anyone who has had to struggle to create their family, so I'm here looking for some support from women who've also struggled with infertility, specifically IVF. After reading through some threads, everyone seems genuinely supportive and understanding, so it looks like I've come to the right place!

Here's some of my infertility background:

After actively TTC for 6mos, diagnosed with PCOS.

Clomid - 7 cycles, no O.

IVF Retrieval - 32 eggs. Froze 6 blastocysts.

IVF Transfer - 2 embryos.

Pregnant!

Miscarriage at 5 and 7.5 weeks. :(

We didn't have to do a DNC, so couldn’t perform any pregnancy loss tests. We were just told that although they were our two best rated embryos, these babies simply weren’t “intended”. I know I should feel lucky that we have 6 frosties waiting for us, and I do, but they aren't the best quality (mostly BB or BC, I think). Now that we’re gearing up for our FET in September, I’m even more nervous than I was the first time around. I’m scared of losing an embryo through the thawing process, I’m scared that they won’t stick, I’m scared they won’t grow… I’m scared of everything, really, which is so unlike me! I’m a firm believer that positive thoughts can help produce positive outcomes, but I’m having a hard time getting there with this cycle.

I know that everyone is different, but I’d love to hear any insight you ladies might have about my situation. Also, I have some questions if anyone is willing to share… How many IVF cycles did you go through before giving birth to your baby? Did you lose any embryos when they were thawed? How were your embryos “rated”?

Thanks so much for reading this long post!

Nichole