This feels like the longest 1WW ever...

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This feels like the longest 1WW ever...
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Thu, 03-17-2011 - 4:57pm

I P'sOAS Saturday, Monday, and Wednesday, and they were all negative- I should have gotten AF this morning if I was running on a 28 day cycle, which I have been doing for about a year, but last cycle was 30 days, so she could show up tomorrow or Saturday and I wouldn't be surprised. However, I am a huge weepy mess. Sometimes I get weepy before AF but not typically to this extent. I cried on the phone with the receptionist at DS's pediatrician because I had to reschedule an appointment for him. I cried when I saw on FB that my old English teacher from Jersey is running the marathon (WTF- I hated him!) I cried when I had to cover an extra class today, which normally doesn't bother me at all. AF needs to stop screwing with me before I kick her in the taco! I totally just almost tossed my cookies just now washing bottles too, which is weird, I have an iron clad stomach, but there I was heaving over the sink. I would love the BFP but at this point I just want SOMETHING. Ugh. It doesn't make it any better that DH is now working late AGAIN tonight, due back at midnight, for the 24th night in a row. I am done with being a chef widow, it sucks!

Thanks for listening, I didn't even mean to rant so much!

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Thu, 03-17-2011 - 5:17pm
Kick her in the taco?? Ohmigosh I can't stop laughing!!!
Sorry you are such an emotional mess. Last month I had a 30 day cycle, this month was 25! Blah!
What kind of HPT are you using? Maybe give a FRER a try if she doesn't show today.
Lilypie Trying to Conceive 21 to 37 day cycle tickers
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Thu, 03-17-2011 - 5:35pm

I used the Dollar Store cheapies, and Saturday a Target blue dye +/- test. Not an early response one... I do have a FRER that I might use in the morning. I just need to move forward, in either direction. Being in limbo is just so difficult for me. I'm kind of a control freak and having NO control pushes my buttons.

Ha, I got the "kickin' the taco" from a friend on my EC, who tries to use more appropriate language than I do, and it's stuck. I love it.

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Thu, 03-17-2011 - 5:43pm
I've heard that dollar store tests aren't the most sensitive and blue dye test should be outlawed. Use your FRER tomorrow and report back. :) we might just get a few more BFPs this month yet!
Lilypie Trying to Conceive 21 to 37 day cycle tickers
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Thu, 03-17-2011 - 7:06pm
I am crossing my fingers and my toes! I continue to be really nauseous. What's bad about the blue dye tests?
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Thu, 03-17-2011 - 7:09pm
Well aren't you the hot mess today!! I have never seen so many tears!! I'm in tears just reading this! Okay, wipe those tears, blow that nose, deep breath now, don't make me slap you, pull it together man, pull it together! ;) That's all I got, there's my speech! I sympathize with you though. I had this random cycle where I was 44 days long! OMG I thought I was going to die! But than I went right back to my 30 days. So don't get too upset yet. Maybe your cycle decided to change from 28 to 30. It happens all the time for no reason. So if that's the case, you should be able to get another HPT with a BFP or AF in the next day or so. I know it's a total struggle and you're barely hanging on but we can do this!! :) There are a lot of women out there who don't get their BFPs until they are actually really late with AF and some never get it through urine test. And if its' just AF holding you up, than I do wish that bitch would just show her face already! Either way, we're here for you!! Give DH a big snuggle tonight when he gets home...as Scarlett says, Tomorrow is another Day!

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Thu, 03-17-2011 - 7:11pm
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Thu, 03-17-2011 - 7:11pm
Mess, yes, hot, nope! Hee hee thanks for the giggles Tammy!
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Fri, 03-18-2011 - 6:28am

Ahhh, the saga continues...nothing could be easy, right? Slept really well FINALLY and just felt really creepily calm for the first time in a week. Got up this morning to POAS. Test line came up right away. And then three minutes later I was like, WTF? It's one of those damn blue dye tests (I thought it was a FRER) with the plus/minus- the ones that when you pop them apart the one section of the plus is actually blue plastic- but there's a smidge of a line, and I didn't even stare at it for a long time to see it. I popped it apart because I couldn't really tell, and could see it better popped apart. So I'm going to stop on the way to work and get a better one so I can stop waffling and just know. FX that I'm not losing my vision...

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Fri, 03-18-2011 - 8:01am
WHAT? WAIT! Girl you can't leave me hanging like this! What did you see?! Did it look like a positive?! Darn blue dye tests! Oh this is going to be fantastic! You're pulling a me! Leaving us all in suspense!!

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Fri, 03-18-2011 - 9:11am
dude i didn't even know you were HERE!! :P
Get your butt out and go test again. And I wanna know. Now. :P
Ps - kick in the taco - where have i heard that before ;)
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