baby shower blues.
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|Thu, 04-08-2010 - 11:28am|
so i have to go to a baby shower on saturday. my friend is due with a boy mid-june, which was my due date before losing the pregnancy at 11 weeks. she is a dear friend and we were so excited to be pregnant together and share a due date. i feel so weird about going to this shower, as i know that my loss has been on a lot of their minds. the woman who is pregnant though has never talked to me about the m/c and i just know it will get brought up at the shower. part of me wants to just not go because i know it will be so very awful for me emotionally. especially since BF will be out of town so i will be going solo. but part of me really wants to show that i am alright and show my excitement and support for their family.
i do know i have resisted testing successfully because i cannot bear to face a BFN and then go to this thing. this cycle will be extra hard if AF shows because it puts me on hold for two cycles.
sorry, had to vent. just feel really down about this thing. thanks for listening and extra babydust to all that took the time to read this!