Beginning of cycle blues...

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Beginning of cycle blues...
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Sun, 11-13-2011 - 6:40pm

So yesterday I did pretty good on CD1 because I had some things going on and didn't really take time to think about it too much but now today reality has hit and I've been having a hard day dealing with another cycle of failure. It's so frustrating!! I just don't know what to think.....since TTC my cycles have been so wacky that I'm not sure I'm even Oing. I tried to temp last cycle but my temps were wacky and so I stopped after I thought I had Oed...but I either never Oed last cycle or did later...But I don't know. I'm using digital OPKs this cycle plus taking Evening Primrose Oil and a new multivitamin this cycle to try to help...but tonight as I sit here and think about it I just get depressed thinking about doing these things and it could result in another failed cycle. I know that I should totally be okay with it because we are only on like month 6 of TTC but I'm really starting to loose faith in my bodies ability to do this. And I get frustrated thinking about how I have to wait 6 more months before he doctor will look into anything....I really don't want to wait that much longer. DH also informed me today that BIL and SIL are trying for another, so I'm sure any day we'll be getting a phone call to let us know their good news and of course I'm happy for them but its just hard...

Sorry for the vent .....just feeling really down.

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Sun, 11-13-2011 - 7:24pm

Awww, I'm so sorry you are feeling so down Beth. This stuff can be very trying, all of the waiting and trying different things and having them not work, this time...

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Registered: 10-24-2011
Sun, 11-13-2011 - 7:42pm
Just keep your head up and don't lose faith about having the child you want. TTC can be very demanding and upsetting. Just remember why you are doing all the things you are doing to have that Angle you want. Best of luck on this new cycle.
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Mon, 11-14-2011 - 7:58pm
Hang in there. I feel like I have good days and bad days. Around the time AF comes there are a few more bad days. I'm sure your hormones probably aren't helping you either with feeling down and depressed. Try to stay positive and take some time to do something for yourself. I go and get a pedicure or massage and just try to relax and clear my mind of all the stress.

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Wed, 11-16-2011 - 10:27am

Try not to worry too much k-beth, it'll happen for you!!

Kiki (hit my magic age of 45 and no longer TTC),but mom to a beautiful teen DD & 2 angels in heaven & married to my best friend