Do you ever get Scared?

iVillage Member
Registered: 08-28-2006
Do you ever get Scared?
3
Thu, 07-30-2009 - 7:55pm

Hello.


Im not really sure what i am needing right now. Maybe to vent, maybe to purge my self of negativity, maybe i just need reassurance or to hear that some of you feel the

 BabyFruit Ticker
iVillage Member
Registered: 07-25-2009
Thu, 07-30-2009 - 8:10pm
I am exactly the same way, I can't hold them, i can barely look at babies most of the time. My husband and i have been trying for over 2 years (I'm on my 23rd Cycle) to have our first and it still hasn't happened yet ( to my knowledge as of now), and unfortunately we can't go to any kind of fertility specialist or get any help (such as clomid) because we just don't have the funds. It terrifies me to think it hasn't happened yet and i might never get it, at this point it's become like the lottery. You Pick Numbers but they never win....My last AF was on June 17th so i'm praying with everything inside me that i get a Positive on the test i'm going to take tomorrow, but I'm terrified that i'm not going to get one. It's so hard, I can't image if I were doing it with a unsupportive mother, i feel so bad..I'm sorry. I will be praying for you and your family! hang in there!


~Jennifer Lynn~











~Jennifer Lynn~



iVillage Member
Registered: 08-28-2006
Thu, 07-30-2009 - 8:32pm

Hello Jennifer Lynn,


Thank you for making me feel sane.


I think my problem is that i was so "damaged" be the TTC process last time that I haven't focused on healing the hurt. So it has been there all this time and is

 BabyFruit Ticker
iVillage Member
Registered: 07-25-2009
Thu, 07-30-2009 - 9:06pm
I can understand the feeling Damaged, sometimes i feel like everytime AF comes, it chips away at me little by little, but i try to stay strong. It's been hard to wait to test lol but I've been this late twice before in the last two years, and If i go tomorrow without seeing AF I'll be as late as i've ever been before and i'm just i'm terrified of seeing another negative..but praying all the same! Give yourself time, and give yourself a chance! If you ever need to talk let me know! :o)


~Jennifer Lynn~











~Jennifer Lynn~