Frustrated with everything
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|Thu, 04-30-2009 - 6:43pm|
I am getting so frustrated with everything right now. Our original plan was to build our new house this spring, hopefully get PG this spring and have our baby sometime after Jan. next year.
Well, first we went way over budget for our house. We went back to the bank to see if we could get more money in our loan. We have been waiting to hear back from our loan guy for two weeks; he isn't returning our calls or e-mails.
Then I got diagnosed with PCOS. Which I know it is not imposible to get PG with PCOS, but it makes it a whole lot harder. The final straw came today when DH got an e-mail at work that they are reducing their workforce by 12%. Doesn't seem like much, but last time he was close to the cuts.
So if he loses his job, he is planning to go back to school. Taking away an income; meaning we definitely won't be able to get the house loan. I can't swing it on my salary. Meaning we can't continue trying for a baby until we get a new house. (Our house is very unsafe for kids. ie lead paint and other problems)
Ahhh! If God doesn't want me to have kids, he could just say so. I'd be able to get over that better, than this keeping my hope up with all these roadblocks.