frustrations and more frustrations

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Registered: 02-20-2009
frustrations and more frustrations
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Wed, 09-15-2010 - 9:34pm

I really just have to vent about this and I know that the ladies here will understand how I'm feeling. I've been TTC since 2/09. I've been temping the last 4 months and I recently went to a RE, who ordered a SA for DH and an HSG for me. Everything went well, and all the results were normal. I'm waiting for Sat. to test for this month- the hsg was this cycle. Hopefully that opened the way, so to speak :) If that didn't and I'm not pregnant this cycle, the RE wants to start clomid. No problems there, other than the obvious no baby.
The issue is, I'm in my OB rotation in my nursing program. No one I talk to can really understand what it's like to have to take care of these mothers who are 20 and on their 4th child. I just want to shake them or yell at them when they return the baby to the nursery, because they 'need time to get themselves together'. I really don't know how to deal with this anymore. I'm so heartsick and frustrated with what's going on in my life, and then I have to take care of these women. I would give anything to have the option to say that (not that I would)or to be in their place. I have to go to the hospital again Saturday, and if my temp drops that morning, I don't know if I'll be able to handle it!

Thanks for reading an understanding, and giving me someplace to vent.

Laura

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Registered: 01-13-2010
Thu, 09-16-2010 - 4:49pm
Oh my goodness, that is a lot to handle. I don't blame you at all. Life is just... not... fair. Ugh. I can't stand to flip through the channels and see stuff like "Kate Plus 8" and "19 and Counting". It's like... really? Grrrrr....



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Registered: 10-05-2006
Fri, 09-17-2010 - 11:34pm
That would be hard. How long is your OB rotation? Hopefully it isn't long.
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Registered: 02-20-2009
Sat, 09-18-2010 - 9:10pm

Thanks for the support ladies, I appreciate that someone understands. I only have one more week of actual OB clinicals, then it off to the psych ward... where I sometimes wonder if I should be as a resident :) My temp took the nose dive I expected this morning, so off to clomid I go. Good luck to everyone else!

Laura

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Registered: 06-15-2005
Sun, 09-19-2010 - 7:52pm
Hi Laura. I just wanted to let you know that I completely understand where you are coming from. I started ttc #1 in April of 2005 and started working as a labor and delivery RN in September of 05, not thinking I would still be sitting here childless over 5 years later! Some days are harder than others. For the most part the families I see are happy and I am happy for them. It's the troubled situations that can really get me down and questioning why things happen the way they do. Why do people who don't care about their children or have their children taken away from them get to get pregnant so easily, when there are so many women like us and others struggling with infertility who see pregnancy as the gift it can be? Our cross to bear is trying to get pregnant and have a child, and I've seen women who cannot handle one more pregnancy or child and get pregnant and I look at it as their cross to bear. But it is unfair. Hope you enjoy your psych rotation more, one of my least favorite areas!! ;)
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Registered: 09-17-2010
Mon, 09-20-2010 - 10:26pm
Im sorry....(((HUGS)))