How do you handle the grief every month?

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How do you handle the grief every month?
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Fri, 03-13-2009 - 10:49am

DH have 2 beautiful boys, my oldest son has Autism and we went back and forth for 2 years on having another child.

  

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Fri, 03-13-2009 - 11:30am
It's not easy!!
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Fri, 03-13-2009 - 12:09pm

I feel your pain. I just started my period after 72 days of nothing. I thought we caught my O a couple weeks ago and we both really thought that was our time. So we were really disappointed that my period started. I was such a b**** to my DH last night. Blaming him for things he cannot control. I think he wanted to throw me off a bridge :) We worked for the same company up until 2 months ago. Some people higher up then us decided they did not like us working together. So I quit. Now I really want a baby but I am so worried about not being able to get a job that will pay enough to help support our family.


We bought a house last summer and it probably wasn't a good decision. We spent the maximum we could afford. My DH once a month paycheck doesn't even make the mortgage payment! I am getting unemployment and we had some other money so we are ok right now but what about when the baby is due. I am upset with DH because I have wanted a baby for so long. I waited until he was ready instead of getting pregnant when I wanted to. (We had talked before and he said if I got pregnant it would be fine but I wanted him to actually say "I want to have a baby"). So now he wants a baby and says lets do it and

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Fri, 03-13-2009 - 12:18pm
It took me 10 months to get pregnant w/ my first, and I recently had a miscarriage after 2 healthy pregnancies.
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Fri, 03-13-2009 - 6:43pm

Hi!

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Sat, 03-14-2009 - 6:36am
That's a good way to think of it Lyn!!
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Sat, 03-14-2009 - 10:53am

It is very difficult...I don't think a lot of people understand the grief a woman feels every month when you want something so bad and there is this huge disappointment.


There was only one month that I got so upset that I couldn't go to work. But I do cry a little every month, and personally, I think it is ok. I have my moments...one second I think I'm fine, the next I cry. But we need to just get those feelings out!


Keep your head up, stay positive...and know that it is okay to just cry!

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Sat, 03-14-2009 - 9:07pm

Lee,


{{{hugs}}}


It sucks.

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Tue, 03-17-2009 - 4:45pm

This might sound weird, but it's so good to know that I'm not the only one who cries over the arrival of AF. It's so disappointing...especially when you're obsessing over every little PMS symptom and wondering if it could actually be an early pregnancy sign. I hate that PMS and pg symptoms are so similar--it messes with your head so much! I try to take comfort in knowing that there is a greater plan to all this, and that maybe if we don't conceive this month, it's because we're actually meant to have the child we conceive later.

I totally make it worse for myself, too, I can't help it--I always read all the mommy blogs and wander through the baby section when I'm in a big store. Maybe the silver lining is that when we DO finally get pregnant, one day I'll be able to tell that child, "we wanted you sooooo much, we wished and prayed and mama made a fool of herself getting misty-eyed over baby socks at Target." Not every kid gets to grow up being absolutely certain that they were wanted and chosen and hoped and prayed for, so maybe that's a blessing in itself.

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