I always try to hide my weaknesses.
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|Tue, 10-11-2011 - 8:43pm|
I don't know why. I know you ladies are a super awesome and caring group that I am so thankful for meeting. But in real life (and even on here) I act a lot more strong than I really am on the inside. I don't like to let my weaknesses show.
But here I am typing to you ladies as I cry my poor little eyes out. I really wanted to start BDing tonight and I could tell DB was so tired from work but I got him in the mood anyway, then he insisted that I do most of the work. But I guess since he was tired and had drank a few beers, finishing wasn't in the cards. But I was determined until I got really tired and stopped for a brief second and he said I ruined it. So I got off of him and he seemed irritated and some words were said and I just totally burst into tears! And now I haven't stopped crying because so much crap is racing through my head... like I feel like this month is ruined already because all the stress from school might make me not even ovulate. Or I'm just going to be too tired half the time to even want to BD. Why couldn't I have just freaking conceived before I started school so I wouldn't have to worry about all this?