I am OVER this month!

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Registered: 12-30-2009
I am OVER this month!
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Sat, 03-13-2010 - 7:52pm

Stupid, stupid, stupid month. According to FF and when I felt O pain, I should be 17dpo. With a BFN. So either I'm not 17dpo, or my body is freaking nuts. Every other day FF takes away my CH, then puts them back. It is beyond ridiculous. I'm sick of my emotions going up and down this cycle. I know it's only cycle #5 this time around, but after 22 cycles to get my girls, then they both passed away in the NICU, I am ready for a baby that is healthy and that I can bring home from the hospital. But nooooo...stinking FF is being unhelpful/my body sucks. If AF is going to show, can't she just show now so I can freaking move forward? This whole thing is making me so stressed that I don't even want to BD anymore. And I really should continue to BD in the likely event that I didn't O yet. AHHHHHHHHHHH.

Thanks for listening, ladies. :)

Chrissi







TTC Baby #3








Forever missing our little girls

Avery (06.23.09 - 06.27.09)

Cameryn (06.23.09 - 06.24.09)





TTC Baby #3 - Cycle #15


Forever missing our

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Registered: 01-13-2010
Sat, 03-13-2010 - 8:35pm

Take a deep breath.... breathe.... Ahhh. Isn't that better? :-)

FF is not the end all, be all. FF can be wrong. It's imperfect. Just keep BDing, keep going. You can do this.

****virtual hugs!****




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Registered: 10-12-2009
Sat, 03-13-2010 - 8:53pm
((((HUGS)))).
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Sat, 03-13-2010 - 9:13pm

oh Chrissi, I'm so sorry you're on this roller coaster ride. I've been watching your chart. Last I saw, your temp dropped on day 30 just like last month before AF, but now I see it jumped up. Very confusing and frustrating, no doubt.


I hope you have an answer soon, either way. ((hugs))


Shannon

 

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Registered: 12-30-2009
Sat, 03-13-2010 - 9:43pm

Thank you, Ladies. I appreciate you letting me whine. I'm feeling better already. I think I just needed a b*tch session. And I sure didn't want to unleash on DH. We have my dad still living with us (he retired, then sold his house...soon after, his wife died suddenly while they were building a house on the other end of the state, so he was able to sell the property and move in with us until he figure out where to go next in life), and now DH's good friend sleeping on our couch (his wife kicked him out and doesn't have family in town). So now I just need to figure out how to get creative BDing with everyone living in our not-so-roomy house. LOL I'm giving everyone lots of beer and pizza tonight and let's just hope they can all sleep hard!!!

Again, thank you for the hugs and well-wishes. I needed that positive energy! Sending lots and lots of sticky baby dust to all of you, too!!!

<3 Chrissi







TTC Baby #3








Forever missing our little girls

Avery (06.23.09 - 06.27.09)

Cameryn (06.23.09 - 06.24.09)





TTC Baby #3 - Cycle #15


Forever missing our

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Registered: 12-30-2009
Mon, 03-15-2010 - 5:48pm

Chrissi: (((Hugs))) This must be the time of the year for crazy stuff!! IDK how you deal w/ a wonky cycle! You are going to be a great mom with all the patience you have displayed so far in TTC!! You rock!!! Maybe it is time to look at those shoes you are wearing?????

Victoria


TTC/Not preventing

Victoria

TTC/Not preventing since Jan of 09

Moving onto k