I lost it this evening
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|Mon, 05-31-2010 - 5:40pm|
I can't do it anymore! I just can't be happy for my pregnant friends. I've been doing it for the 2 years we've been trying, but I just can't do it anymore. It hurts too bad, emotionally and physically. I've spent this evening crying off and on. Sometimes I'm crying so hard I'm shaking, sobbing and feeling ready to throw up any sec.
It all started with yet another friend announcing her 2nd pregnancy. She got pregnant on her wedding night, then 3 months ago she was worrying that she wouldn't be able to get pregnant a 2nd time (her daughter was only 8-9mo old)! And she has the nerve to tell me she understands what I'm going through!!
Also, just last week another co-worker announced her pregnancy.
I'm not over exagerating, all but 2 friends have a kid (1 of them doesn't want kids), or have had a kid within the last year or two or are pregnant again. I've been trying longer than them, I've had to have a surgery, go through fertility treatment (ok, so my SIL has had to go through treatments too, but she now has 2 kids and a 3rd on the way!) and I'm still NOT pregnant!
I know you ladies understand and I'm sorry this sounds like such a pitty party, but I can't handle it anymore. I need someone who does understand me and who I can at least get my grief out to. My poor DH just looks like he doesn't know what to say to me and his "sorry" just isn't helping right this instant.
I am in so much pain! It physically hurts! And to top it all off, my eyes are going to be puffy at work tomorrow (it's allergies, yeah, right!).
Thanks for being here, everyone!