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Registered: 03-31-2009
Fri, 01-08-2010 - 6:29pm

Hi everyone.
I'm new here and I just posted a small intro message in the main board for newbies, but I did need to rant and get some things off my chest, which is main reason I joined these boards to begin with today.

Today I went to the doctor and had an ultrasound done since I've had horribly irregular menstrual cycles and many BFN's. She saw abnormalities and talked about me possibly have PCOS. I know very little about it, but what I've read has terrified me.

Reading about the hormone changes, makes me feel like I'm suddenly less of a woman. I've always loved my body and felt sexy, my boyfriend and I have really good sexual chemistry and I've always felt like I had a lot of sexual energy. But finding this out, and reading all of the symptoms and reading about what chemically happens with PCOS, I suddenly felt like I'm less of a woman. I dont know if it's because of the infertility associated with it or just that the symptoms explained (lack of AF, decreased breast side, acne, facial hair, etc) I suddenly feel horribly disgusting. It's hard to explain but I know I can't be the only one. I mean, I'm 24, 5'11, only about 145 lbs..why do I feel like I'm disgusting now because I've been associated with this disease??

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Registered: 01-09-2010
In reply to: kattatstrophe
Sat, 01-09-2010 - 3:42am
Hi there,
I just wanted to say that your not alone! I also have PCOS. I've had PCOS for the past 5yrs. It is really devastating! I suffer with facial and body hair, weight problems, irregular periods.
But, this year I plan to change that and fight it. I want a baby so much, I have to do something about it before its to late.
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Registered: 02-08-2007
In reply to: kattatstrophe
Sat, 01-09-2010 - 2:47pm
Hello! I just started visiting this board again- we're starting to try for #2. I do not usually post anything, just "stalk"! But after reading your post, I just needed to respond to you! This "label" of PCOS, does NOT make you a different person! You are still the sexy, tall, slim beautiful lady that you were the day before! I too have PCOS, a slight case of it. I was dx'ed in 2008 after ttc #1 for 17 months. I ran to my computer and started to look up info about it since I had never heard of it before. What I read scared me to death! I conceived 3 months later and have a wonderful baby boy! I don't even think about it anymore b/c it doesn't make me who I am! (Luckily I don't suffer from many of the affects of it, but it sounds like you don't either)
I just want you to know that PCOS is not a death sentence, it doesn't change you. There is a good chance you've always had it (Birth control controls it so therefore you didn't know you had it). There are many women out there with this and they have many beautiful children!!!! Stay positive!!!! I ended up taking clomid and having IUI's to get pregnant. You should find an RE and go to them right away. The good thing about this is that you will get to skip all the other steps of getting into a RE (trying for a year etc).
Good luck and let me know if you have any questions! I'd love to hear how things go!