Big cyber hugs to you.
Those are really tough days to get through, and I am really sorry that you've had a struggle today.
oh my gosh! i know exactly what you mean! when my nephew was born last march, i was glad i wasn't around the family-- i cried so hard! of course you are happy for them, but it still hurts so much-- why them and not me, right?
i actually cried the other day looking at the target ad because it had like 6 pages of baby stuff in it! my big thing is, why does god give people who don't want kids babies, and not the people like us who really want them?! to which of course my husband says "you don't know that you won't have one!" which is true. but it is still so frustrating!
so here is to us, the ones who are trying! and may it happen SOON!!!