Well, tested this am BFN, but I'm OK !!!
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|Mon, 05-12-2003 - 9:23am|
Hope every one was able to have a wonderful day yesterday sharing it with the women we love most, our mothers. Even though I know this is a difficult time for many of us. I'm not different. DH & I went to MIL and SIL. SIL is 5 months pg right now with 2nd, and she is doing really great. She had an ultrasound done the other day and found out they are having a little girl and she has pix from the U/S. I'm trying to be as supportive as I can for her. During her 1st pg, I was a bit of a B****. She and BIL kinda did everything backwards - got pg, brought a house and then got married. She has everything I wanted but I made a promise to myself long ago, ( and please understand , this my own personal opinion, not condemning or trying to step on anyone elses toes when I say this, because I am definitely no saint ) that I did not want to become pg without being married. That is just how I was raised, so I hope everyone understands this comment. That is why I did not stop BCP until 2 weeks before my wedding. Well, here it is 8 years later, and I can't help but wonder if maybe I had stopped BCP sooner and would not have been so self righteous, would I have possibly gotten pg then. But I made that decision long ago and can't worry about it now. ( Sorry about that little story, guess I just needed to vent a little ).
But here it is, Mon. May 12, and I'm patiently waiting for AF. Expecting her anytime now. BB's are sore and that is a tale tale sign for me. As some of you may know, I am new to this board. Been posting just over a week. Not really sure what CD I'm on but estimating CD24. Think cycle runs anywhere from 23-28 days. Don't know for sure because I haven't started charting yet. Plan on starting that for the 1st time ever as soon as AF shows. Went out Sat. and bought my BBT and also a pg test (FRE). I also printed the manual off of FF to read up on all this before I start. Some of you may have read already that I am scheduled for gum surgery on Thursday, that is why I wanted to test to see if by some remote chance, that I may be pg, but the test shows BFN. So, I don't have to worry about that. I can go through with surgery and get my stupid teeth fixed, ( well, half of them anyway, he's only doing one side, and at the beginning of the year, he'll do other side )and not have to worry so much about the meds. But, regardless, even though I held out little hope that I was pg, it is still a little hard to see that BFN, but I'm not totally bummed. I'm ready to start this TTC thing full force if AF just would go ahead and come. Thanks for listening and I'm truly sorry this ended up being so long. Sometimes I get long winded. I promise, I'll try to do better.
GL to everyone out there and here's bunches of whatever kind of ((((((((vibes )))))))))) that everyone needs right now.