Wishing I had good news, too
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|Sun, 06-13-2010 - 4:02pm|
A friend of mine IRL has been struggling with infertility for about a year. In that year, she's withdrawn from a lot of our friends, but she's withdrawn even more from me because I'm the only friend of hers who already has a child. It's been really hard not to take it personally and I've shed some tears over it because I miss my friend, but I can't make her talk to me. We've had two phone conversations in the past year and she responds to about 40 percent of my emails.
Judging by her Facebook status today, it looks like she found out she's pregnant again. She has a blog, so I knew she would be testing soon, but her blog says nothing about it yet and her FB status is vague (it's actually everyone else's responses that make me think she got a BFP). First of all, it really makes me want to test today, but I really should hold off until at least tomorrow. Second of all, I really want to share in her good news, but I feel like I can't call her, which makes me sad. I did send an email pretty much asking her if she was pregnant and offering congratulations if she is. Third of all, I'm starting to worry that this isn't my month either and no matter how deserved her BFP is, I'm still going to be sad if I get a BFN and we can't be pregnant together.
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