Sadly, I'm back ... again. :(

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Sadly, I'm back ... again. :(
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Sat, 11-20-2010 - 7:28pm

Well ladies, I'm back. I don't know how many remember us but we conceived in March and lost the baby @ 9 weeks in April. We finally conceived again in September. I carried the baby till 11 weeks. November 18th I started spotting. That night @ around 3:30am the spotting turned into heavy spotting/light flow. I called the Dr when I got up and they had me come in right away. Did an ultrasound and found out our little gummy bear had passed away at 9 weeks. Just like the baby in April. Also I now believe that our baby we lost before our son Nate that I carried to 14 weeks was the same thing. A missed miscarriage @ 9 weeks. That makes 3 that happened in the exact same way. Today I took 600mg of cytotec, which made me feel like I was literally dying. The pain was so great I almost passed out more than once. The baby made her way into the world at 12:30pm today. We took the placenta and tissues into the ER and into the lab at our hospital right away. They are being sent away to try and find out what exactly is going on. We did a 15 vile blood work up after I lost the last baby and everything was fine. This is our last hope. I really hope we figure out why this keeps happening and know what to do from there. Hopefully it will be something that is easily fixed. I'm not sure exactly when we will start TTC full force again, but I am definitely not going to be preventing. I am going to get back to charting and hopefully get my cycles figured out. I'm hoping we wont be needing Clomid this time. We'll see. So any how, I figured I would come let everyone know that I am back and can't wait to have my healthy sticky baby. Sending LOADS of baby dust to everyone!!! :)

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Sat, 11-20-2010 - 9:16pm

I'm so sorry for you loss.

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Sat, 11-20-2010 - 11:33pm

Oh Sarah, I am so sorry.


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Sun, 11-21-2010 - 1:26am

@ Toni, thank you.

@ Chrissi, thank you. I hope I have inspired someone. Even 1 person. This has been one of the hardest things I have ever been forced to go through. I never in a million and 1 years thought I would be reliving this nightmare almost exactly 7 months later (2 days shy). I am trying to swallow the "every thing happens for a reason" mess that so many keep telling me but I just don't see the reason ... I dunno my faith just isn't much there any more. All I can think is that I have done something very horrible in my life or am a horrible mother or something to deserve *THIS* much pain. I just don't know what. I try really hard to be a good person and always give more than I take ... I'm just rambling now ... Sorry. I obviously should be sleeping not on IV.

I am super excited for you and hope you get your BFP very soon :)

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Sun, 11-21-2010 - 10:23am
Sarah I am so sorry you are having to go through this emotional and physical pain. I hope you are able to get some answers soon. You are a wonderful person and mother who doesn't deserve this. I will keep you in my prayers ((hugs)).
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Sun, 11-21-2010 - 5:52pm

I am so sorry for you loss, and I wish you all the best

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Sun, 11-21-2010 - 11:31pm

Prayers to you during this time and hoping the Trying stage will bring happiness. Can you see if your Dr. will let you do testing to see if you have a clotting disorder? Ask him or her about it. There is a possibility all you would need to do is give yourself a shot everyday and be able to be pg for 9 months. Not sure if I am any help but sending lots of good luck and baby dust your way.


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Mon, 11-22-2010 - 11:20am

Hi Carrie. Thank you!! :) When we lost the last baby (in April), the Dr did a 15 vile blood work up on me, that was one of those tests. Everything came back perfect!! So now our last hope is in the testing of the placenta from this baby. I hope we get the answers we so desperately need soon.

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Prayers to you during this time and hoping the Trying stage will bring happiness. Can you see if your Dr. will let you do testing to see if you have a clotting disorder? Ask him or her about it. There is a possibility all you would need to do is give yourself a shot everyday and be able to be pg for 9 months. Not sure if I am any help but sending lots of good luck and baby dust your way.


~Carrie

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Mon, 11-22-2010 - 12:34pm

This is such sad news, and I am really sorry for you and DH.

Andrea

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Mon, 11-22-2010 - 6:05pm

I am so sorry for your loss! Losing a

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Tue, 11-23-2010 - 6:02am

I am so sorry for the loss of your baby.

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