Honey, don't feel bad for posting your feelings on here. I think this board is for that, so we can support each other through the process. I got off the pill mid July of this year and been trying since, this is my full month of TTC since my AF came this 10 days ago.
Where I am trying to get at is that although I been doing for a lot less time then you have I can see how nerve racking this process can be. Your doctor is right relaxing would be ideal, but when you want something so bad relaxing is not what your mind and body do. This ca work to our disadvantage and we know that.
I think you could very well be pregnant because you are late, I say wait one week t test again. I bought the Firs Repose test bc I heard they are more sensitive. The spotting could have been a result of implantation. :) I say just take a deep breath and keep thinking positive. I know soon rather then later we will get the result we want. :)
My Ovulation Chart
I totally feel your pain.