Bummed about CP

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Registered: 10-27-2005
Bummed about CP
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Mon, 10-06-2008 - 8:42pm

ALmost to the point of tears and self-pity.

i have little feeling in my hands from MS (hence the horrible typing) so i dont check CP. but i have been trying every once in a while. and i am so frustrated ad angry. i know i dont need to check CP, i can chart without it, but i just wish i could figure out a way!! the best i can do is i THINK i feel something in there, in a weird spot, (not where i thought it would be) and it is hard like the tip of my nose (like FF says) but other than that, i can't tell if it is low medium high, open, closed, etc. and i dont know if i will be able to tell the diff between hard and soft.

i am so frustrated, and i just dont know if it is worth it to put myself through this remindeer of my stupid handicap! ARGH!!!!



Jenny


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11/1997 - Found my future husband!

5/2003 - Married my love! Life is Great!!

2/2004 - had my Jane, 9 months later ;-) Life just keeps getting better!

5/2004 - diagnosed with MS. Life Sucks!!

2/2006 - FINALLY got pg with #2, after 2 years of waiting for fertility to return, 6 cycles of trying.

11/2006 - Edgar B (GERB) arrived

10/2008 - looks like another 2 years of waiting.... I am on cycle 5 of trying!!

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Registered: 09-27-2008
In reply to: j8nny
Mon, 10-06-2008 - 8:52pm

stop. you already said you know you don't *need* to check it, you just want to. and i know (at least to some small extent) what it's like to want to do something and your body just won't let you.
take a few deep breaths.. is this an official attack? might this go away later tonight or even later this week? from what i learned when my neuro thought i had MS (i did TONS of research), these things can pass, depending what your personal situation is.
you know good & well that you stressing over it is NOT going to help you.
go make a cuppa (camomille?) and relax a bit.. you cannot let yourself get stressed over this, jenny.

and i'm always here if you need a hug or a shoulder or an ear.. whatever. after my lil tiny bit of experience and talking to ppl on an MS group for the better part of 3 months, i've heard and learned a decent amount.. and i'm here for you, too.

go find a lavendar candle and breathe deeply.. that's supposed to be relaxing.. if you've felt it before, you'll probably feel it again. it's just not meant for you to check out right now. K?

love you!!

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In reply to: j8nny
Mon, 10-06-2008 - 8:54pm
oh, and i wanted to add that i'm not in any way trying to imply that i know what you're going through.. my situation is different, but i feel as though i just learned more than the average bear during my experience with all my back & neurological issues.
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Registered: 06-01-2008
In reply to: j8nny
Mon, 10-06-2008 - 8:55pm

Hi Jenny,


I'm sorry you are feeling so down right now. I don't know if it makes you feel any better but I feel exactly what you do and I can never tell if my cervix

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Registered: 02-07-2008
In reply to: j8nny
Mon, 10-06-2008 - 9:28pm

I have full feeling in my hands, but can never really tell anything about cp either.

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Registered: 04-03-2003
In reply to: j8nny
Mon, 10-06-2008 - 9:29pm
I can only imagine how frustrating you are finding this, but like you said it isn't nesecary.

  

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Registered: 08-20-2008
In reply to: j8nny
Tue, 10-07-2008 - 12:28am

Jenny-


My dear.

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Registered: 07-08-2004
In reply to: j8nny
Tue, 10-07-2008 - 5:59am

I can't even figure it out and I don't have MS....so as much as you WANT to check cervix stuff....you are soooo on tp of everything else, I don't think it will matter. :)


 


 

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Registered: 10-27-2005
In reply to: j8nny
Tue, 10-07-2008 - 8:26am

Thanks kelly, i actually just got back into chamomile tea, LOL trying to stp drinking so much green tea!! and then my Dh got the wrong one (had honey and vanilla in it, yuck, lol) so it is funny that you brought it up!!

My hands have been numb for going on 5 years, this is an old attack that has never completely healed, so it is not goin away anytime soon. no biggie, just annoying things like sticking my finger inside myself HAHAHA sorry TMI.

BTW, when it first happened, i truly could not feel anything, i couldnt hold a cup of coffee,couldnt feel wet and dry - had to put a cloth diaper to my face to feel if it was wet with pee, HAHAHA LMBO.

thanks everyone, this is all stuff i need to hear - sometimes i just dont know if i am unable to do this, or it is something eveeryone has a hard time with.

I just thought that i would AT LEAST be able to feel if it was hard or soft, hi or low, but i got so frustrated that i think i will skip it altoghether. maybe check closer to O, when it SHOULD feel somewhate different????

hope you are feeling better htese days too, kelly!



Jenny


with DH Tighe, 4.5 yo Janey and 23 mo Edgar B





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11/1997 - Found my future husband!

5/2003 - Married my love! Life is Great!!

2/2004 - had my Jane, 9 months later ;-) Life just keeps getting better!

5/2004 - diagnosed with MS. Life Sucks!!

2/2006 - FINALLY got pg with #2, after 2 years of waiting for fertility to return, 6 cycles of trying.

11/2006 - Edgar B (GERB) arrived

10/2008 - looks like another 2 years of waiting.... I am on cycle 5 of trying!!

+ Jenny +

Dh Tighe
6.5 yo DD Jane
4 yo DS Edgar
1.5 yo DS Hugo
Baby #4 due 08/14/11


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Registered: 10-27-2005
In reply to: j8nny
Tue, 10-07-2008 - 8:33am

Thanks everyone!! i am not going to stress about it. i used to stress about temps, and so i didnt do them... until i had to when i couldnt conceive my 2nd. and i was able to add temping to m repertoire, no prob!! i thought i'd try to add CP, but i think i just wont add to my frustration!!

thanks so much for the responses!!



Jenny


with DH Tighe, 4.5 yo Janey and 23 mo Edgar B





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Lilypie 2nd Birthday Ticker
Lilypie 5th Birthday Ticker




click for my chart




11/1997 - Found my future husband!

5/2003 - Married my love! Life is Great!!

2/2004 - had my Jane, 9 months later ;-) Life just keeps getting better!

5/2004 - diagnosed with MS. Life Sucks!!

2/2006 - FINALLY got pg with #2, after 2 years of waiting for fertility to return, 6 cycles of trying.

11/2006 - Edgar B (GERB) arrived

10/2008 - looks like another 2 years of waiting.... I am on cycle 5 of trying!!

+ Jenny +

Dh Tighe
6.5 yo DD Jane
4 yo DS Edgar
1.5 yo DS Hugo
Baby #4 due 08/14/11


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Registered: 06-01-2008
In reply to: j8nny
Tue, 10-07-2008 - 11:01am
I think you have been there for all of us at one point or another. It's a pleasure to return the favor! He never gives us more than we can handle even though it might not feel that way. Hugs!
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