Can't get babies off my mind!!

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Can't get babies off my mind!!
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Sun, 09-23-2012 - 11:30pm

Hil ladies. 

My name is Kat, I'm 27 & currently baby crazy. I've always been anticipating the moment I can TTC & become a mom but after a time period of gynecological irregularity, explorative surgery & eventual diagnosis of endometriosis along with PCOS, I've really been spasing. The whole venture was originally something I talked about with my SO but for a while I was holding in my desires/obsessive thoughts because I was worried it would just overwhelm him too. I have to admit that when I finally expressed how much it really meant to me, how worried I am & how much I need support, it was the best thing ever. The even better part of expressing all this was that I found out he understood & felt just as strongly as I did about starting a family! 

After talking with him & really expressing my concerns of irregularity with my gyno (who by complete coincidence is actually very interested & experienced with infertility) we began venturing into diagnostics to search for answers. It started with an ultrasound, revealing PCO but I was not fully diagnosed with PCOS since I didn't have most of the symptoms, just abundant cysts on the ovaries & irregular cycles. Then when did the blood tests, checking hormone levels & evaluating cycle charts. After doing such & getting on progesterone to try & promote a healthy cycle, we started noticing pain during intercourse & mid-cycle problems so we moved to more. We went with an endometrial biopsy first but that was completely normal so then we decided on laproscopic surgery, which I am currently recovering from now. It's only been 2 days & I'm already stressing.

I found out after the surgery that I had stage 1 endometriosis which I honestly have no idea what that means, but I am highly anticipating my post-op appointment. I know I'm rushing my thoughts to cut immediately to the worries of what might be wrong..but I can't help it. My SO is totally understanding & is trying to remind me that we're doing all we can & the best thing we can do is take it one step at a time, but damnit I can't get babies off my mind.

That's why I'm here, reaching out a little bit to a community that I think can understand me better. I have a great support group but I don't want to run them ragged! Especially my SO, he's already worried himself while trying to be a rock for me so I need to get some of these emotions under wraps & focus a little better.

I'm sure I'm not the only one dealing with such strong baby desires & feeling baby crazy, so how do you ladies cope? I can't help but feel a little insane sometimes with how much I think about it..and it seems like everyone around me is pregnant, having a baby, has a baby or just found out they are pregnant. 

Help!

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Registered: 03-13-2012
Wed, 09-26-2012 - 2:22am

((Hugs))

Im sorry this is going on! I hope that things will start to fall into place for you and your dh now that you know what's up and have taken the necessary steps to fix it. I came across a few articles maybe some if any can give you any answers or piece of mind. Please keep us all updated as things progress.

Article on pcos

http://www.ivillage.com/pcos-complicated-disorder/6-a-144573

Info on Endo

http://www.endometriosisinstitute.com/infertility.html

ivillage message board for fertility and pcos

http://forums.ivillage.com/ivillage/?category.id=iv-ppifpcos

 

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Registered: 01-26-2009
Mon, 10-08-2012 - 8:12pm
Hey, i know exactly how you feel, im only 22 and have been TTC for almost 2 years. My whole life all ive ever wanted is to become a mom. When I moved in with my BF we didnt use any protection and was gonna just let it happen but after it didnt we started REALLY trying, tracking cycles, looking up info, opks, etc. I want to temp but I already dont sleep good to add that to the equasion.

Ive been obsessing about babies for sooo long. Even before TTC I used to day dream about being pregnant. Im on here alot and other baby websites hoping i can be on them soon. Im about to start the DR process to see whats going on but without insurance, will be a slow process. Dont have much advice because im the same way. Hope you get your BFP soon!

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