Coming out of lurkdom to vent...DD ment.

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Thu, 04-10-2003 - 3:16pm
WARNING: this is a post from an already mother venting about something to do with her child so if you are easily offended by someone posting about their child(ren)...please don't read! Just thought I'd warn everyone before reading! I don't want to offend anyone b/c I know some of the stuff in this post might offend someone who is ttc#1 or something like that!

I wish they had a sad icon, not just an unhappy one! I am not unhappy, just kinda sad. Today was DD's due date....5 years ago. Of course, she was late and came on the 16th instead (which is my mom's bday too) but I'm just kinda sad b/c I can't beleive it has been 5 yrs!!! It just makes me want another one that much more. Time just keeps rolling by and my "baby" is growing up so fast! I really thought by now I not only would have been at least PG, but already have #2! UUUGGGGHHH! I could just bawl like a baby right now! No pun intended! Well, I just needed to vent and cyber cry! It is so weird how all the memories come back. April 10th, 1998 (DD's due date) was on a Friday and Easter was that Sunday (the 12th) Well, this Saturday (the 12th) is DD's birthday party. Well, that day holds siginificance to me because DH's family had all brought gifts for the "baby" and they all were like, "Oh, well we got a gift thinking the baby would have been here by now, but here it is anyway and we just put "for baby" on the gift". UUGGHH! Not that I really thought it was rude or anything, but I was VERY pregnant and I too already wanted that baby by Easter. Well, that is the same day I told DH I was going to be PG forever! But in all aspects I am glad she was late....especially since she came on my mom's 49th bday. Then they got to spend their 1st and 50th bdays together! Okay, I just had to vent since today is a "special" day for me too! Going back into lurkdom now! BTW: CONGRATULATIONS Nattiesmama for the BFP! That is awesome! Maybe I should've kept taking my temps! LOL! GLTY and H&H9+!

Sheree

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Thu, 04-10-2003 - 3:20pm
Just thought I would add: the reason for my post and venting is to see if anyone else goes through things like this...whether it is about your child or another significant time of your life? I mean, I feel like I am weird or something for feeling sad about this being my due date 5 yrs ago! It's just that is scares me how fast time goes by! I am thrilled that I have DD but at the same time sad b/c she is getting so big. Does this make sense? Anyone else feel this way?

Sheree

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Thu, 04-10-2003 - 3:25pm
((((((HUGS))))))) Sheree! Come out of lurkdome any time you like sweetie! Please turn that frown upside down :-). Give DD a great big hug and know that your time for #2 will come.

Miss you! Tara

Tara and my June bug!  ;o)

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Thu, 04-10-2003 - 3:35pm
Thanks Sheree - I was just wondering where you were. I'm sure your DD will have a little one to play with soon. Being patient is the worst part. Go have a glass of wine and a HUGE slice of chocolate truffle cheesecake and play with those new kittens (you've found them, haven't you?). And if that doesn't put you in a happy mood, yell at dh :) That always makes ME feel better!
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Thu, 04-10-2003 - 4:03pm
That makes me feel better! Although, yelling at DH doesn't make me feel better cuz that means he did something to Piss me off! We had some fun in the tub last night! Hehehe! Rub a dub dub! LOL! And Yes I have found the kittens! Sheba had them in a hoolowed out log inside a brush pile so they are pretty darn safe and warm there. They are 1 week old today and it appears we have 2 gray ones and a black one. Before we always had to get a flash light to see them inside the log but yesterday they made their way closer to the opening where we could see them with just regular daylight. They are sooooo cute! The black one looks like its eyes are almost open already and they are really starting to move around. I check on them once in the morning before work and when I get home. Over the weekend you could just see them with a flashlight when Sheba wasn't in there with them (she covers them up real good obviously when she is inside) and you could see them in there sleeping together. They were all piled up next to each other and soooo cute! I can't wait until they are bigger and able to come out and be played with. They are the 3 musketeers so maybe I will name them: Athos, Aramos, and Porthos (sp?) LOL! I don't think I will name them that though! LOL! One, if not all, of them are going to my in-laws house! Well, thanks for asking about them! Right now they are actually helping me keep my mind OFF ME having another one! Strange that the birth of kittens is helping me not think about me having a baby!

Sheree

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Thu, 04-10-2003 - 4:34pm
Hi Sheree, hang in there hun. They do grow so fast, and when you reach these mile markers and feel blue, don't think you are weird. My DS made his first goal in hockey 2 wks. ago. He's been playing ice hockey since he was 3 1/2. Anyhow, it was one of those that it was so cluttered you saw it go in but couldn't see who did it. After the game he came to me and said "mommy, I scored a goal." I started to cry. He looked at me and said "why you crying mommy." I smiled in between tears and said "because I'm so proud of you." I cried his first time on the ice without a cone to help him too. I look at him daily and think how big and mature he is getting. You know, originally we had planned to have baby #2 in May of this year. Things don't always go exactly how we want them, but they do happen. Your turn will come. Hey, at least now you have some answers and things to work with to help the process. I wish you all the best and sorry I got off on a side bar there. You know, when they are little it seems like it just dosn't last long enough, but I bet when they are teenagers it will feel like it lasts forever. ;) Take care, and my best to you.
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Thu, 04-10-2003 - 4:45pm
Thanks Melissa! Did you get my email? I have had some trouble with me email. Sometimes when I hit the send button it gets sent and sometimes not so I was just checking! Thanks! CONGRATULATIONS on DS getting his first goal! Cool!

Sheree

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Thu, 04-10-2003 - 4:54pm
I know how you feel. My son will be 4 soon and I can't believe how BIG he keeps getting! I've been planning his party for awhile now. I had been concerned about him being too old to play with his little sister when I was pregnant with Anily. When she didn't make it, I was overcome with the additional grief of not just my baby dying, but his little sister. He talks about his little sister a lot and when we look at catalogs or go to stores or whatever he points out things that he wants to get for his baby sister. It breaks my heart.

People tell me that "You're young, you can have more." and it doesn't FEEL like that when I see how quickly my son went from being a baby to being so grown up! Time just flys by! It seems sometimes like I'm gonna be 80 in no time at all!!!

Well, good luck on TTC. I hope it happens quickly now. I also hope your daughter has a great birthday!

-Robyn

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Thu, 04-10-2003 - 5:15pm
Thank you for sharing that with me! I also have people tell me to quit worrying about the timing of having baby #2 because I am still young (just turned 22) but it's like....I know how old I am, I know I still have time, but I want 3 kids! I love kids and I love family. My FIL has this weird old fashioned way of thinking. He thinks that b/c his parents only had 2 kids, he needed to only have 2 kids (which he did: DH and BIL. My MIL wanted to try for a girl but FIL said nope...we already have 2 and we aren't having anymore), but he thinks that we need to just have one more. I feel like telling him that is the dumbest thing I have ever heard of and I'll have 10 if I darn well want to! LOL! OK, I am stepping off my soapbox now but I know how people can say things that are intended to make you feel better, but they don't! GLTY! When will your DS turn 4?

Sheree

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Thu, 04-10-2003 - 5:33pm
I didn't get your e-mail. Actually, I figured I'd e-mail you tomorrow if I hadn't seen you, to see how you'd been doing.
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Thu, 04-10-2003 - 5:38pm
Okay, I will try to send it again! If you still don't get it...I will email you tomorrow. I am fixing to leave work now! Take care!

Sheree

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