Goodbye.

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Registered: 07-31-2003
Goodbye.
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Fri, 09-19-2003 - 2:21pm
Hi everybody,

Well, I just wanted to update you to what is going on with me My Dr is on vacation and does not have anybody to cover her, apparently. I've decided to do an HCG level just to see what was going on since my appt. was only for Oct.21. Unfortunately for my Dh and I, the HCG has gone down, from 27 to 18.4. I knew it was somewhat low at 27 but I kept my hopes up but...I am soooo down now and I keep on wondering why is it happening to me, what did I do to deserve this? To top it all of, my dad was just diagnosed with leukemia on top of his history of ongoing bladder cancer. I had told my dad the news that I was PG 2 days ago, when I found out the result. He was so happy, and that made me very happy to see him happy. I think that the forcing myself to get PG is driving me insane and looking through the net scares the hell out of me. You hear so many stories that it makes you wonder if this is what is going to happen to you,...and it did.

I am thankful for all the support you ladies have given me but I think that for my sanity, I won't get on the net for this anymore. I wish I had a BFN instead of this.

I'm just waiting for it to evacuate, there is nothing else to do, right?

For sure I'll be looking for another Dr., one that is more around for his/her patients.

Good Luck to all you ladies,

Dim

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Registered: 03-26-2003
In reply to: dimsum2003
Fri, 09-19-2003 - 2:38pm
I'm so sorry to hear all that is going on in your life. Hang in there and things will improve. I'll be sending extra prayers out to you and yours to help through this time.

sunny

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In reply to: dimsum2003
Fri, 09-19-2003 - 2:50pm
I am so sorry Dim for all that is happening in your life. I just had a m/c last month and found out under the same circumstances (decreasing HcG levels). I'm also so sorry to hear about your father. My prayers are with you and your family.

Susan

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Registered: 03-27-2003
In reply to: dimsum2003
Fri, 09-19-2003 - 2:54pm
I am so sorry. The same thing happened to me in August. Please know I'll be thinking of you and hope you are feeling better soon. If you need to "talk" here's my email:

amyw@dtwatson.org

There is a pregnancy loss board here, too and they were incredibly helpful to me and know how you are feeling. Maybe you could lean on them for a bit of extra support?

Whatever you decide, please take care.

((hugs))

Amy

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Registered: 06-11-2003
In reply to: dimsum2003
Fri, 09-19-2003 - 2:55pm
I'm so sorry for your troubles. I will send out a prayer for you and your father. I hope that some day you will return with great news. Hang in there, was doesn't kill us makes us stronger. You will come out of this ok.

Claire

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Registered: 07-02-2003
In reply to: dimsum2003
Fri, 09-19-2003 - 3:10pm
I'm so terribly sorry Dim :o( You and your father are in my thoughts and prayers during this hard time. I know it is so hard to deal with right now, but please try to stay positive. If you need to talk to someone who has also gone through this(a couple times) please feel free to e-mail me tratcliff@nikon.ca .

Big (((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Tara
 

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Registered: 09-20-2003
In reply to: dimsum2003
Mon, 09-22-2003 - 8:21pm
Hope everything gets better...

RDN
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Registered: 07-04-2003
In reply to: dimsum2003
Mon, 09-22-2003 - 8:58pm
Oh Dim...

I am so sorry this is happening to you. You and your Father are in my thoughts and prayers. Sometimes a break from the net and therefore , the TTC subject, is just what is needed. I sometimes find myself getting too wrapped up in the ttc subject too. If you do take that break....please return every now and then to keep us updated on you. Take Care, Marcy

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Registered: 07-28-2003
In reply to: dimsum2003
Mon, 09-22-2003 - 10:28pm
Dim,

Hi Hon I am so sorry to hear all of this from you.I thought things would work out great for you.Sweetie you will be in my Prayers.I'll be praying for your father.Take care please stay in touch when you can.

tfoley73@hotmail.com.

(((((HUGS)))))

Tracey

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Registered: 06-30-2003
In reply to: dimsum2003
Mon, 09-22-2003 - 10:43pm
Oh Dim, I'm so sorry Sweetie- my heart is breaking for you! This isn't fair- not your bfp and your dad...it is scary and makes you wonder why and what next. I hope that this rough time passes for you quickly and when you think you may want to ttc again that you'll come back to this board- we love you so much! Mega huge ((((((((((hugs))))))))))))) and you, your dad, and your family will be in my many many thoughts and prayers!! LOLove, Connie