i am on Edge of seat...
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|Sat, 08-25-2012 - 4:53pm|
2 periods ago i was in the 'every sign means i am pregnant' then when af showed up exactly on time, certainly i was disappointed.
this last perios i was pretty bumbed and didnt even concern myself about 'signs' and just waited for it to come, and sure enough, it came exactly on schedule.
this is a small good sign because for awhile my af was laste every month due to stress, so at least i knew i was back on schedule.
my dh and i oulled out all stops and tips and tricks this last month-sit on a pillow, hips up for 20mins-haha. sex everyday, twice daily-my dh actually was tired. haha
i started off the tww without worrying, but then ibut couldn't help myself. i felt differently though no unusual symptoms. my boobs were sore as usual, crwamy cm all the time didnt mean anything with me as i tend not to dry up... but still i started just thinking more about wanting this to be it- weve been tryign al,ost all year so its about time.
well, my af was due yesterday but to get my mind off of it, i told myself that its due today. it hasnt come yet. sometimes i can see it arriving before it axtually starts to flow- sorry tmi- and so far, no sign.
so technically im 1.5 days late. im trying to be strong and not take a test. i am afraid of what it might say. if i get my af tonight or tomo then i woulda wasted a test haha
I am nervous when I go to the bathroom because maybe it will show up. How mean af would be if it arrives late! Esp. Since its been on time past few months. I just keep positive and hold my breath. I know I can end this by taking a test but I just can't face it just yet if its negative. Everyone around me at work is getting pregnant.ive been OK in the past months when it came but idk about this month. I'm going to upset. It means I have to go see a fertility doctor to figure out why I'm not getting pregnant. Its just getting too long trying since Jan. Why would af be so cruel to me to be late. That would just be so upsetting. I mean, other months I had my hopes up only for them to be knocked down because af arrived right on time. But to anticipate and wait-the long 2ww wait and it doesn't come... well now I'm in limbo.. I made it barely through the 2ww and now I'm still waiting. How many were waiting and af wound up just being late instead of being pregnant? Maybe that will help me figure out what's to be expected.