I Need To Vent!

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I Need To Vent!
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Wed, 08-20-2003 - 8:51am
Good morning,

First of all, I hope everyone is having a good morning! I need to blow of some steam here!

I am sure most of you have heard me freaking out about this months cycle - (which still hasnt changed - I am 5 weeks DPO now....and going nuts.

SO ---

I already tested 5 times in the past several weeks - last time being the beginning of last week. Of course they were all BFN's.

I decided to buy another $15.99 FRE yesterday on my way home. I thought that since the last couple of tests I bought were the Walgreen's generic, that maybe if I bought the "good" ones, the results would show if I was indeed pg.

WELL,

I got home, rushed to the bathroom to try out the first stick. I did everything I was supposed to do - peed for 5 seconds, blah blah blah....

well, nothing showed up in the window - not ONE line not TWO lines! nothing!!

This happened to me once before but I thought I had done something wrong!

I was so pissed. I tryed to call the helpline, but they closed at 5:00 est.

Well, I still had the second stick so I decided to wait until first morning pee to use it. (Still thinkning that maybe I drank too much water at work yesteray and that altered the test somehow.)

I had dreams all night long about pregnancy tests! I had one dream that I was out of town with my parents and husband, and that I went to the bathroom and tested with about 10 different, (and really funky looking), tests. THEY WERE ALL POSITIVE AND I WAS SO HAPPY!!

only to wake up and realize it was the middle of the night and I had not tested yet.

So, after these dreams I couldnt go back to sleep. I layed in bed for hours holding my pee until I couldnt hold it anymore!

Finally I took the 2nd test - THE SAME THING HAPPENED! NO LINES!!!!

IS SOMEONE TRYING TO DRIVE ME COMPLETELY INSANE?!

I couldnt believe it! I had to laugh.

So, I called the damn FRE center this morning on my way in to work (they open at 7:00AM)

And they accused me of not knowing how to use the tests!!!!!!

I have only spend $1,000,000,000 on these damn things in the past 14 months! I told her how it happend to me a couple of weeks ago too and she said, "Ma'm I am not going to argue with you!"

Can you believe that?

Thanks for listening - I hope the rest of my day gets better. I cant see the dr. until next Tuesday, and I am going broke on buying bunk FRE tests! Be warned! They sell bad ones! I bought mine at Walgreens, and I will never buy another one again.

((((HUGS)))))

Stephanie

Hope I dont sound too psycho - even though I may be! LOL

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Registered: 05-07-2003
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Wed, 08-20-2003 - 9:18am
I am very sorry you are so frustrated, I know how you feel. Last month I was 39 days rather then the 31 I have been for years and years and years!

I thought for sure that was it, it turned out I had a UTI I was unaware of. I had never had one before in my life so had no idea what to look for. My OBG said that most likely caused the delay.

Hang in there, it may just be a late month, our body's are sooooo weird. Just when we think we have them figured out we get thrown a monkey wrench!!

++++++++++++++++++ thoughts +++++++++++++++++++ ((((((HUGS)))))

Kath

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Wed, 08-20-2003 - 9:50am
I'm so sorry that the helpline was like that! I always thought that no control line meant a defective test stick. You should at least get a control line. I know you've had a rough time these past few weeks with all the BFNs you've gotten. Have you called your OB yet?

I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I do hope everything works out. Please keep us up to date on your status!

(((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))

Cat

TTC#1

C5, CD15, DPO1

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Wed, 08-20-2003 - 9:53am
Thanks, I know that everyone here has their bad days. I just feel like I am never going to get my BFP. And now I can't even get AF to show up. I am starting to realize that I may never get to have my baby. (I don't mean to sound like I am having a pity party for myself, I am just having a really bad day.)

Thanks for listening,

Stephanie

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Wed, 08-20-2003 - 9:55am
Hi Cat, Thanks for responding - I have an appt. to see my OBGYN next Tuesday...hope I make until then! LOL

Stephanie

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Wed, 08-20-2003 - 10:00am
Oh my gosh Stephanie, I'm so sorry you are having a horrible time. I haven't had any problems with them yet, except always BFN. Hope your day gets better

Jenn

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Wed, 08-20-2003 - 10:26am
HI Stephanie,

NO, you don't sound psycho at all. Vent all you need to!

I love the way they make it sound like it's so possible that you "took the test wrong". Those tests are really hard to screw up, but if there's some defect they want to just blame it on the consumer.

I haven't read any of your other posts, so I'm sure you've already addressed this....but are you POSITIVE you O'd when you thought you did?

Anyway, the whole ttc thing is so frustrating, but just know that there are lots of us right there with you! My mantra to myself is always "if you're pregnant, you are, and if you're not, you're not!" I know, stupid, but it makes me remember how worthless it is to keep wasting so much money on hpt's (not that it helps all the time!)

Well, hope things go well with the gyno next Tuesday, and in the meantime.....sending you *patience* vibes.................

Suzanne.

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Wed, 08-20-2003 - 11:25am


hi Stephanie,

Are you still temping? Can we see your chart? I am very curious about your situation!!

Maria

EDD 3/19/04

Maria
DD Amelia  03/08/04
DD#2 due 01/31/06

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