I want to die!

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-01-2003
I want to die!
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Sun, 10-12-2003 - 7:27am
After a long night of thinking...I have realized there is NO point in me being here any longer...all I wanted is a baby, and she is dead, I love her and just want to be with be more than anything...thank you for all support and g/l too all!

See you in Heaven!

Love Abbey

Mommy to Isabel Grace b/s @ 40 weeks (6/23/03)

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine...You make me happy

when shies are gray...You'll never know dear, how much I love you.....

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Registered: 04-02-2003
Sun, 10-12-2003 - 2:40pm
If anyone is reading this - I think this woman had a website - maybe it has information as to how to locate/contact her and someone (possibly one of the CL's?) could get the authorities to check on her or something along those lines? Awful to wonder what is happening and if her family doesn't know these are her thoughts...may God be with her to take her through this horrible time...
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Registered: 03-27-2003
Sun, 10-12-2003 - 3:24pm

You must have faith that things WILL get better. There are many people that lve you and care about you~please remember them!


I am at a loss as to what to do- there are so many ladies here who are praying and who will have little else in their thoughts but your welfare. I have contacted iVillage, though I'm not sure that they can be of help. I want everyone to know that are reading this that I'm sure all that can be done will be done.


All my prayers and love and strength to you dear.


(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))


Tara ~ CL-tratcliff though I don't have my hat on

Tara and my June bug!  ;o)

co-CL o

iVillage Member
Registered: 07-22-2003
Sun, 10-12-2003 - 3:44pm
Abbey,

Please call someone you love immediately. They can help you and pray with you and give you much needed love. I'm also sending my prayers and love your way and hoping so much that you are already being comforted. Please write us back.

love,

jenn44

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Registered: 05-31-2003
Sun, 10-12-2003 - 6:00pm
((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))) Abbey, please hold on and reach out for support. There are people who love you and need you. This is a great loss to you and you greiving is so normal. It takes time for all that pain to become manageable. You can do it by looking for support. Abbey all my prayers and thoughts are with you. I will be looking for your posting telling all of us how you are doing. I wish I could be there to give you a big hugs and help you through this personally, I feel helpless but I want you to know I care, alot of ladies on here care. Your family cares about you, so please reach out to someone for comfort.

Bless you!!!

~ Tina ~

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Sun, 10-12-2003 - 8:14pm
Has anyone alerted ParentsPlace yet? I'm wondering if they would be able to find any info out with the information she provided when she joined. I'll e-mail them now.

Heather

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Registered: 10-08-2003
Sun, 10-12-2003 - 8:28pm
I hope she is okay....I had viewed her webpage that she listed on the board earlier in Oct., is there any info there that could be used to try and contact her? here is the link:

http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/i/isabelgrace/

Can the website administrator be contacted somehow? I am not sure how these things work....the hospital info for her daughters birth is listed as: June 23,2003, Methodist Hospital in St. Louis Park, MN. I dont know what their privacy policy is. I hope someone is able to reach out to her before something terrible happens.

iVillage Member
Registered: 07-22-2003
Sun, 10-12-2003 - 8:33pm
I contacted the hospital's OB unit earlier today and told a nurse of Abbey's website and a link to her thread here on ivillage. I told her the baby's date of birth and time and name. She seemed very concerned and told me that she would look into it. I'm praying that wasn't too forward of me and that they might be able to contact her through her medical records.

Still praying she's okay.

jenn44

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-08-2003
Sun, 10-12-2003 - 8:44pm
Bless you. Good thinking, I think there's many people heartbroken after reading her posts and feeling helpless, praying she doesn't do anything to harm herself. I don't think what you did was too forward AT ALL, one of the main symptoms that a suicidal person will exhibit is a cry for help, which is what she did by posting that heartwrenching message earlier. No harm done in preventative actions that could potentially save someone. I believe it is better to be safe than sorry. I hope Abbey is okay. Let's hope we hear some encouraging news soon....

Rachel

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Registered: 07-17-2003
Sun, 10-12-2003 - 9:42pm
Abbey I hope you are reading all our messages. You must live for your baby your baby that you lost. I am sure you have a wonderful husband who would feel heart wrenched if he lost a daughter and a wife. Please seek help from your family and friends. Let us know how you are doing we are all worried. Stephanie
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Registered: 06-07-2003
Sun, 10-12-2003 - 10:26pm
Abbey...

Hopefully you will read this.

My aunt tried to kill herself a couple of mths ago. She took alot of pills at a time when noone would be home to find her. Thank God she didn't succeed. She too felt she was at a point where she could no longer live. But she was wrong. And if she had succeeded she would have devastated many lives...her kids, her husband, her brothers...the list goes on and on.

She touches SO many lives & enriches us all. We are all so grateful that she is still with us, and she now sees that she had made a very bad decision to take herself away from us all. You must also remember that there are people who need you here on earth.

You will see your angel soon enough, when the time is right...that decision is NOT up to you. Allow yourself to grieve, but don't cut your life short. You have so much more living to do & I'm sure your angel wants that for you so you will be ready to leave & earned to right to be by her side.

Love,

Michelle

Michelle & Jenny (born 10-3-04)