Need someone to talk to..

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Need someone to talk to..
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Sat, 09-08-2012 - 11:30am

I went to visit my doctor a few days ago and was telling her the issues I have been having. She told me that it was highly likely I was pregnant. Their pregnancy test was inconclusive. The strip didn't change colors at all. So she told me to wait a week and take a home test. AF came to visit me in the middle of the night. I had a Bartheloins (sp?) cyst that bursted last night. I was hoping it was just blood from that.. But it wasn't. I have been having unprotected sex with my hubby for over a year now, and still nothing. I feel like I am doing something wrong or God is punishing me. The doctor had my hopes up and I had my heart broke this morning.. I'm feeling a little down and out today.. I just need someone to talk to.. That's all..

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Registered: 03-13-2012
Sun, 09-09-2012 - 1:54am
(((hugs))).

I am so sorry that you are feeling so let down, hurt and disappointed. Ttc can sometimes feel unbearable like the constant disappointment is too much to keep with month after month. But you definitely are NOT being punished by God!! Don't ever think that about yourself. God is love and he would never punish you for wanting more love in your life!!! So many women struggle with some sort of infertility. Have you had the full work up? How about your DH? Are you using opk's or temping? What has your Dr said? Has your DH had his swimmers tested? My DH wasn't very happy when we had to have that done but it did give us some insight into our ttc issues.

Please don't be so hard on yourself. You are strong and can get through these tough times to reach your goal of a sweet lil bb.

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Registered: 11-13-2008
Tue, 09-11-2012 - 11:56am
I'm so sorry that you had your hopes up :smileysad: Please don't blame yourself for not getting pregnant, it's nothing you've done and nobody deserves this at all. (((HUGS)))