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| Thu, 03-05-2009 - 2:47pm |
I am going a bit nuts and need someone to talk to, I hope you all don't mind me popping in here. I have been down the road of infertility, we tried for 8 yrs before my eldest son, and another 9 yrs for my next successful pregnancy. Conceiving was hard, and then I have lost several too. I am now 44, and wasn't really planning on more (we now have four, 3 biological, 1 adopted), but was open to it at the same time. In December we found out I was pregnant again, however, I just lost the baby 5 weeks ago. DH and I were still talking about whether we wanted to seriously try for another or not. I do, but he isn't sure yet. In the meantime I had planned to get a few things in order first, to give the next baby (if there is one) the best possible chance. So this month, especially being right after our loss, we were actually avoiding the possibility. We did not use any protection, but the moment there was any sign of any CM we completely abstained until a day or so past the sticky stage. Given our history, there should have been no problem, no real chance of getting pregnant this month. However, the past week my breasts have been really tender and swollen, not something I usually do unless I am pregnant, and even then it is not every time. Going by the CM, my period is due around Sunday. I tested today, but still am not sure one way or the other. To me there is the "hint" of a line, but not enough to really say there is a line. Now, a few hours later, there is definitely a hint there. Yes, I know you aren't supposed to read it after 10 minutes, but I am sure I am not the only one who goes back and keeps on checking!
All of this to get to my question! I know I am testing a few days early, and so in a day or two it could be positive, or it could be a clear negative, but have any of you had this shadow thing happen? I am not even sure if I want to be pregnant this month, just because I had been taking a break from my vitamins and everything, and after losing 2 babies in the past 7 months I am a bit scared to even find out I am again. I guess I should have been taking my 5mg of folic acid just in case, I just never thought it could be a possibility. Don't worry, I will be thrilled to find out I am, I treasure each and every one of my babies so much, just as so many who have been down the incredibly difficult road of infertility do.
Thanks so much for listening, I am hopeful and scared to death at the same time, and just need a listening ear right now. Thanks for any help or insight you can give me.
Michelle
Loving Mom to three

Thanks. Well, I still don't know what to think! It is so shadowy, it is hard to say, but it did show just that tiny shadow within the 10 minutes. It is slightly darker now, and possibly a very faint blue (the lines on the test are blue) but I just can't tell for sure. I don't think I have ever seen evap lines show up that soon though, doesn't it usually take a few days? Oh well, I guess the only way to know for sure is to test again in a day or two. On the one hand I really hope I am, on the other hand, I had really wanted to get my blood sugar back down where it should be before trying again. It isn't that high, but my fasting level has been elevated ever since having GD with my last baby.
Thanks so much for your post Holly, I really hope this month is the one for you. (((Hugs)))
Michelle
Loving Mom to three
Michelle
Loving Mom to three rambunctious