ok.. I'm getting REALLY frustrated!!

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Registered: 08-19-2003
ok.. I'm getting REALLY frustrated!!
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Fri, 08-22-2003 - 2:08pm
This is really frustrating to me! I ALWAYS O between cd's 9 and 12.. and ALWAYS have O pain! ( I mean REALLY BAAAAAAAD O pain! ) Today, I'm on cd 18.. and no O yet! TONS of ewcm up until today.. but... NO O! Opk test line was just slightly lighter than the control line yesterday. Today's is the same! WHAT IS GOING ON????????

I have af-like cramps.. in the center.. and pressure/pulling sensations.. but.. not the type of "twinges" that feel like my body's preparing to O. I've had both those feelings for most of this cycle so far.

One part that I'm very scared/worried about with this cycle is that a year ago.. almost the exact same thing happened! That one ended in a very devestating m/c. =(

(same time of year, even)

I don't even know where to post right now.. Hope no one minds me posting this here.

Does ANYONE have any ideas? or at least some calming words? I can't bring this up to dh (he knows nothing of this cycle.. other than af's not here)

Oh.. some fyi that you may wonder: My usual O is between cd's 9 and 12.. my usual lp is anywhere from 11 to 17 days (they kinda .. work their way towards the shorter.. then the longer.. and back again.. BUT.. the absolute "average" is 13/14 days).

The ONLY time I have EVER O'd later than cd12 was the cycle immediately following the m/c last year.. and O happened on cd15 that time)

At the moment, I seem to have some quite strong pulling sensations going on on both sides of the uterine area (not the ovary area, though).

I am confused, worried, scared... and unable to talk to anyone about this except for you ladies here.

Needing someone to understand my worries..

Jen

Edited to add chart: http://www.FertilityFriend.com/home/bf13


Edited 8/22/2003 2:27:47 PM ET by iluv2sign

Jen

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Registered: 04-09-2003
Fri, 08-22-2003 - 2:22pm
Jen-

I wish I knew what to tell you, but I don't. Sending you some calming vibes.

Jenn

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Registered: 06-04-2003
Fri, 08-22-2003 - 4:28pm
Jenn-

Have you tried to take an HPT test yet. I know that I had my AF and then a week later my hpt was ++++++...You never know. If not call your doctor and ask.

-Stephanie

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Registered: 05-30-2003
Fri, 08-22-2003 - 4:34pm
Hi Jen:

I don't know if I can be of much help but I was wondering if there are lines on the OPK doesn't that mean you are about to O? I have only used an OPK once and that was 2 years ago and the first time using it I conceived my DS, so I don't have a definite memory of how you read those but regardless if I was you I would BD at least every other day during this time, thats the fun part :o)

I'm really sorry to hear about your m/c, I can't imagine what you must have went through.

I myself am on CD 18 and had EWCM yesterday and just a little bit today and my DH gets back in town tonight so I'm planning some hot BDing tonight to make up for him being gone all week, I'm really hoping it isn't too late. I don't chart my temp or anything so I'm going off of EWCM and the twinges I'm feeling today.

I hope I was able to help in same way, just remember you're not alone and I'm on here several times a day if you want to talk some more.

Also I was wondering by your screen name, I'm assuming you're talking about sign language right??? I have been teaching my DS to sign, it is so fun and he can tell me what he wants instead of whining, I have the book Baby Signs and its been great, he is 14 months and is picking up the signs real fast, its so cute to watch him sign, because of course they aren't exact but I know what he is trying to say. Anyway sorry about rambling on here, just thought I'd throw that in..

Keep your chin up and I'm sending baby dust your way!!

Rhonda
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Registered: 05-04-2003
Fri, 08-22-2003 - 4:47pm
Hi Jen.. more baby dust to you! I understand your pain completely... I never knew when I was going to O - all I knew was that I had to wait forever... I had such long cycles that the waiting can make you mad! A line even equal or slightly darker than the control line does mean that you are getting close / having your LH surge. I was a big user of OPK's since I never knew when I would O either. Just keep baby dancing and try to relax... everyone here has told me repeatedly...stressing can delay O even more --- just enjoy the baby dancing!!! I wish you the best of luck.. and I kinda agree with Stephanie... maybe you should tak an HPT.. you never ever know!!!

Jennie and Lil One

EDD 4.19.04

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Registered: 06-04-2003
Fri, 08-22-2003 - 4:47pm
Girls-

I guess that we all have somthing in common. I love to sign as well. Micah our 2 year old will not talk. He choose not to so we taught him sign language so we could under stand him. Well now he chooses to sign before talking. You are right though it is cute to see them sign.

-Stephanie

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Registered: 05-04-2003
Fri, 08-22-2003 - 4:48pm
One more thing.. according to Fertility friend.. my pregnancy chart was an annovulatory one... so listen to your body!

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Registered: 06-30-2003
Fri, 08-22-2003 - 4:54pm
Huge (((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))) Hey Jen, how's it going besides all the o worrying, eh? Tara told me what's going on, and it blows my mind, but you know- it's not just this board, so hang in there and know that I'm here for you too!

On a very + note, looking at your chart, I'm almost (very!) tempted to say that you o'd on cd13 and you're having a slow temp rise. I'd wonder if your cramps aren't implantation going on and I pray that it really is implantation and that this is going to be one very sticky bfp for you! MEGA huge ++++++++++ PV's and HV's coming your way... I'd guess you're about 5/6 dpo. GL!!!!!!!!! LOLove, Connie

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Sat, 08-23-2003 - 11:19am
I want to say thank you to you all. I really appreciate you all taking the time to reply to me.

First, about my screen name.. Yes... it's about sign language. I interpret for the D/deaf and Hard of Hearing in our church/church organization. I also have a child who's slowly going deaf. My dh is hard of hearing (but refuses to use sign.. but will probably end up having to learn anyways because of our dd.. she's choosen to learn sign now before she's completely deaf.) I also LOVE to sign songs. It's really neat/pretty to see. I also plan on teaching our next child(ren) from birth. I've heard of the book that was mentioned.. but I haven't seen it yet.

(second:) I'm VERY scared to take an hpt right now because of what happened a year ago (m/c.. and the cycle that this one seems so much like..). I kept the opk's from the last two days.. (because when they dry.. it's easier for me to tell which one's the stronger +).. well.. they're equal. :( I did have something happen when I went to Walmart yesterday.. (it only happens when I'm pregnant.. so now I'm REALLY.. REALLY.. apprehensive!) We (my dd and I) were looking at somet hings.. comparing prices.. and all of a sudden.. I just HAD to sit down. I was dizzy, suddenly sweaty (yuck!), nauseous, had a sinking feeling in my stomach, and just plain DRAINED. It's the weirdest thing. After sitting down for a few minutes.. it usually goes away. This is the first time it's happened in almost a year. (I don't have heart problems.. which can also cause these feelings.) It may just be the thoughts about this cycle and the cycle a year ago being so similar.. but.. I don't know.. it's not something that ever happens when NOT pg.. I just don't know WHAT's going on with my stupid body! It's SO FRUSTRATING!

Connie, Thank you. How's it going otherwise? That kind of depends on which part of my life you're talking about.. lol.. Dh is feeling TONS better! :D .. DD's scheduled for a comprehensive hearing test.. Fm isn't too unbearable right now.. My mom's Dpuppy almost died yesterday (just found out this morning), due to a severe viral infection, and thanks to my mom's being an RN.. she was able to take the puppy home yesterday evening and continue the IV's at home (she's doing better today).. The affects of what happened a year ago (afterwards.. what I told Tara about..).. the "change" seems to help quite a bit. I'm just sorry I waited so long to do it. I'm thankful that you and Tara are my friends here. =) {{{HUGS}}} to you BOTH!

Thank you all! ... and.. I'll consider taking an hpt when I can get up the nerve.. until then.. Please keep me in your thoughts/prayers.. (I'd sure appreciate that!)

LoTHANKS to you ALL!

HUGS!

Jen

Jen