Sooo nervous about 2nd beta
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| Wed, 10-22-2008 - 10:32am |
I go today for my second hcg blood draw. My level from Monday's bloodwork was 150, which is pretty good for 14 dpo. But I'm just not very confident about today's (and I won't find out until later tomorrow afternoon, ugh!) If this were a normal pregnancy, I would probably be fine. But considering how much I bled this weekend (all brown, lighter than a period but DEFINITELY heavier than spotting.) I'm so worried that things are going down, not up.
But could they have really gone up that much and be going back down already? I had spotting from 4 dpo to 7 dpo. Lots of dark brown bleeding from 9 dpo to 11 or 12 dpo (just a few spots on 12 dpo) and then got the BFP on 14 dpo. I hadn't tested before then (except at 8 dpo, lol.) I only tested at 14 dpo because I was going for a fertility consult that day and wanted to be TOTALLY SURE that I wasn't pregnant before starting meds. So it seems like a high number to be miscarrying ... ya know? I mean, I know it's possible. In fact, it's probably what's going to happen. It just seems strange that it would go up that much already if it's not viable ...
Today I'm all paranoid because I don't "feel" as pregnant as I did yesterday or the day before. I know that means nothing, I mean, I KNOW it in my head, but I still can't stop worrying about it.
Thanks for letting me vent. :)
Camille



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(((((BIG HUG)))))
I hope that you get some news that will relieve your stress!!!
As far as you "feeling pregnant" remember that it is so so early. With my DD I had sore breasts in my 1 ww really really bad, but then I have read from ladies on here saying they didn't have that until later, I believe one woman said her breasts weren't affected until the end of her pregnancy. Morning sickness--that didn't start for me until 7 weeks, and that seems to be pretty common. I can't tell you to not be nervous, I totally understand. But I just want to remind you that every pregnancy is different. You can always try to talk to a nurse or your doctor about it, tell them you are just really concerned about the bleeding. And then, if you can talk them into it...which I don't know if you can, the doctor can order the test done "stat", really fast, so he gets the results back asap.
Usually it seems they reserve that for situations where they HAVE to know stuff fast, if someone is sick or they are really worried about something. But you might tell him that your nerves are killing you and the stress really concerns you, and is there any way they could get the results back sooner? I find it kind of odd that it even takes that long to get them back when ordered normally-with my doc, I went in in the morning and had the results that afternoon. So there's no harm in asking.
I am sending lots of sticky, big fat number vibes your way, but like I said, I think that you having 150 at 14 DPO is great. Much luck to you!
Hi Camille,
[{{hugs}}} Vent away!
UGH, they wouldn't do the bloodwork stat! They refused me both days. Today I begged a little harder. Explained that I had A LOT of bleeding this weekend and that I'm REALLY nervous about the numbers not doubling. But they aren't concerned AT ALL. I asked if it cost more to get it stat and they said no. So then I don't really get it. Oh well. I guess I don't want to find out while I'm at work anyway.
I'm very much not confident about it doubling. I know it was all brown, but there was a lot of bleeding this weekend. Almost as much as a real period. Not quite as much and it only lasted three days but still ... I don't see how a baby could survive in there ... Thank you for all of your kind words though. They really do help.
Camille
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Thank you so much Laura. You are too nice.
I think it's awesome that your numbers went up so much, that's all that really matters in the end anyway. I am really praying for you. You've been through ENOUGH and it's time for a healthy baby (or two!) for you!!!
(((hugs)))
Camille
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Hi there,
Im with Laura! Your HCG level for 14DPO is great compared to what mine was.
Camille,
First of all hugs and sticky-vibes-all-I-can :)
I read yesterday someone saying that had periods in the first 3 months of pregnancy, I really hope this lady comes by to make you feel a little last stressed.
I think you should believe in your numbers. If the docs are fine, I think they are experienced to, you should trust them for now.
Do an exercise, like that book the secret, I guess. Imagine your bean, there really cozy. Imagine you going to see the exam results and doctor telling you everything is fine, that the numbers are amazing. Imagine the bleeding stopping.
Do It all over again. It works! (I believe, so can you?)
Huge hugs, and tons of glue to your bean. I know he is fine
Lua
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Thank you, Lua! you're so sweet! I will definitely do that exercise. I've been imagining both scenarios because I'm afraid of being really upset of hearing bad news, so I guess I'm trying to prepare myself. But I think I will think only positive thoughts for the next 19 hours!
But it's funny that you talk about this because this weekend, when I was thinking about my Monday fertility consult, I was imagining waking up Monday morning, taking a HPT for the heck of it, getting a positive and then getting good HCG levels from the doctor. But this weekend I had just finished bleeding, so I didn't think there was truly any way that I'd ever get a positive HPT, I was just having a little pity party! LOL. So I guess it worked for me that time, I should do it again!
Thank you :)
Camille
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Thanks, Juzzy! Although it's not so much the initial beta, it's the doubling that I'm worried about. I'm worried the bleeding was me miscarrying and that my numbers are actually on the downswing instead of up. But I'm going to be think positive and say that they'll have tripled! :)
I did read someone's post about having had several periods while pregnant and it did make me feel better. It just seems so rare, I'm surprised it's happened to me!
Camille
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