SOS-"Sisters of Support" check in 8/28

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SOS-"Sisters of Support" check in 8/28
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Thu, 08-28-2003 - 8:26am
Good Morning Sisters,

My heart is heavy this morning and feels beaten down, so please keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I try to deliver an uplifting devotional for all of us. I will do the devotional in a separate post, not here, since I'm kinda venting. So sorry!! I couldn't stand it last night, so my best friend came over last night, ( She's TTC#2 and our cycles are 3 days apart) and we both tested with some internet tests I bought back in June. I told her I was very skeptical about the accuracy and she said we could try them and if nothing has happened by Friday, we would buy FRE's and take those. Well, as you can guess, we both got BFN's. And I had refrained from going to the bathroom for 6 hours, so I know it had to be strong enough. I think it was easier to handle cause she and DH was right there with me, but it still hurts. I got up this morning thinking, well, I'll take the test that came with my OPK's ( Answer Early), another BFN! So, I'm figuring AF will show her old ugly face soon, unless, oh my goodness, I'm possibly starting menopause. This cycle has been totally different than any other, so I just thought, " I must be pg ." I know it's not over til she shows, and there are no obvious signs of her. Usually, I'm spotting by now, but all I'm having is that very light brown/ pink watery/creamy cm, internal ONLY. Nothings made it to the outside and this has been going on since Sat. night. It's Thursday!!!!

I also have DH heavily on my mind and his current job situation, or should I say, lack of job. We've made it through Aug. with our bills, but I have no idea how we're gonna handle Sept. if he doesn't find something soon. It's putting a huge strain on us, in many ways other than financial. I'm trying to be as strong as I can, but it's getting more difficult. I told him last night that he may need to consider something temporary to get some money flowing, instead of searching for that perfect job with perfect money. He agreed. He has always said, " It's easier to find a job when you have a job."

Well, I guess that's enough of my whining for the day. I'm trying to be strong and so sorry to dump all of this on you ladies, but I know you will pray for God's will to be done in our lives. I hope everyone has a wonderful day!!!!

Devotional will follow.

BFP+++++ Vibes to all

~Lisa O~ 36 DH37 TTC#1 C4 CD30 12DPO ( according to FF)

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Lisa...I wish I were actually there so I could really hug you, but I guess internet (((hugs))) are the best I can do. Believe me...I've been there. The disappointment of a BFN when you were SO sure your would have a BFP....it is like a punch in the stomach.

Now...do remember that it is not really over until the old hag actually shows up...so try to hang on to a little bit of hope.

And please don't even worry about starting menopause early. You are still too young for that...and your cycles are WAY to regular! I really do not think that is an issue for you. You are under a lot of stress right now...between TTC, and DH not having a job, and the financial strain that is causing... and stress definitely can affect your cycle...it can delay O...and sometimes even cause you to skip O. So try not to be worried about menopause just yet.

No matter what happens...know that we are here to support you...that is what our group is all about. To sent hugs and prayers when you are down...and to celebrate and give thanks when things go well. Also...know that God has a plan. In the devotional book that DH and I are reading together, it talked about how God had a plan for our lives before we were even born...it is hard sometimes, but we need to trust Him. All things work together for the good...(Romans 8:28)...

Take care...and check in with us later and let us know how your day goes, if you have time.

Anne

Anne - Proud Mommy to Rachel Elizabeth!

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WHERE is my O??? I'm SO ready to O...and I wonder if I'm even going to. It would be strange not to O, seeing as this is my first Clomid cycle...but I read that taking Clomid on CD3-7 like I did, tends to make O early. I'm CD16 and no sign of the O fairy.

No real news today...just checkin' in to say hello to the sisters!

Take care,

Anne

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Anne - Proud Mommy to Rachel Elizabeth!

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Good Morning Sisters,

Here's our devotional for today. I'm so glad that all of you seemed to enjoy yesterdays. Please pray for me that I can deliver this one today as well in hopes that it will touch someone's heart.

Title: "Just Keep on Pedaling"

Scripture Reading: Proverbs 3:1-8

Key Verses: Proverbs 3:5-6

It reads: " Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."

My thought on the story included:

Todays story focuses on how many of us see God as our observer, our judge, to determine our fate later on in life ( or should I say death) instead of allowing Him to be an active part in our lives, our friend, our confidant. The story talks about how our lives can be like a bike ride--- we can try to control every aspect of our lives and pedal exactly where we think we are supposed to, until it becomes very routine, predictable, and sometimes even boring. Now, when you let God become your friend and let Him take the lead and pedal, He will steer you into a whole new world. You may meet people that you never thought you would associate with, go places you would never go, you would take time to think, " why am I in such a hurry", or why am I letting this disappoint me or anger me so much. You know, I think about so many of lifes situations that fall into those catagories that I just mentioned: 1) How many of us have attended a party, meeting or some type of function that you were really dreading, but after getting there, you met some really great people or had a wonderful time, or even learned something new about yourself or someone else? 2) How many of you have taken some sort of trip, or gone hang gliding, sailing, mountain climbing, and you were so unsure of it at first, but you had the time of your life? 3) how many of you have been so busy in your day that you did not take personal time for yourself, or time to help your kids with their homework, or been too busy at a party or some type of function worrying about the house cleaning, food, etc. to really enjoy the whole purpose of the function in the 1st place ? 4) And how many of you have gotten so angry on the road when you can't pass that slow driver in front of you or when someone cuts you off. How many of us have forgotten something at the house and had to go back and get it and was so upset by it, and How many husbands have gotten upset with wives for taking so long to get ready to go somewhere, and then you get down the road------- and there's a wreck ------- If you had not been delayed or forgot that item, or went back to make sure the curling iron was off, would it have possibly been you there in that wreck????? My point, and I know this is a little long, but, I truly believe God puts us where we need to be, when we need to be there!!! So, let him take the lead in your life, and pedal that bike wherever it needs to go. You may be amazed by the things that can happen when we release some of our control over to Him and let Him be our "Bike" guide.

Prayer: "Father God, you know how hard it is for us to let go and let God. We human beings are so used to being in control. We have a very difficult time in trusting anyone else; especially someone we can't even see and touch. Please stay close to us when we doubt. It's not that we don't want to trust, it's just that this is so new to us. Please be patient with our little steps, for one day we will be able to run and not stumble, but today we feel like a young child who is just beginning to crawl. Amen."

Reading on:

Psalm 46: 1,2

1 Peter 5:7

Matthew 6:31,32

Psalm 40:4

Hope you enjoyed our devotion for today and once again, I'm sorry it is long, but I guess I had a lot to say.

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WONDERFUL devotion, Lisa! I'm finding that I really am looking forward to your devotions each day. They help get my heart and my thoughts going in the right direction for the day...

Anne :)

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Morning Sisters,

Lisa - HUGE ((((HUGS)))) coming your way. I know how you feel all too well with the job situation and your worries about getting through September. I'm sort of in the same boat with my DH since his business slowed down. What I got out of your devotional was what this group of ladies is based on.. we need to give it up to Him and let Him steer for a while. I know thats easier said than done but take a step back and look at all you have to be thankful for today. Go outside, breathe some fresh air and listen to nature around you :)

Anne - Looks to me like your temp will be going up any day now. That O fairy must be on her way to visit you!


As for me, my temp went up again this morning but I am a bit concerned because after some fun bd'ing last night, I had a bit of spot. She went away as quick as she came but still causes some concern for me. Keep your fingers crossed for me girls. Next three days temps should tell me if we were successful in catching that eggie this month.

Hope you all have a blessed day!

(hugs)

Kathy

TTC #1

c4, 10dpo

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Thu, 08-28-2003 - 10:16am
Hi everyone!

Lisa, I'm so sorry about your BFN and your DH's job situation. It must all be so stressful for you. You'll be in my prayers. Anne, I think you said this is your first round of clomid right? Clomid will make a lot of women O later than usual, so don't worry. Kathy, don't worry about the spotting-maybe you just irritated your cervix-I've heard this can easily happen. Well I wish I had something exciting to tell you today, but I don't. I'm off to class unfortunately (statistics no less). Hopefully I'll be able to stay awake. I just have to focus on the goal-nursing degree. Well ladies, have a great day and I'll be praying for you all. PS-Lisa I loved the devotional today-really hit home.

Jen



 

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Thu, 08-28-2003 - 10:58am
Hi ladies!

Just stopping by to give you some positive vibes. ++++++ to all of you!!!
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Thu, 08-28-2003 - 11:28am
Lisa, I have something hat may make you feel better. Now, I know I dont know your entire situation, or what God has in store for you, but this may help just the same.

My sister and brother in law tried for 2 years to get pregnant. They knew she was fertile because she had a child from a previous mariage. They were really getting dicouraged. My SIL worked part time at a Dr. office and one day they offered her a full time position, which meant health insurance, which they didnt have before. Guess what, that month was the month that they concieved! I dont know if that is the situation with you and DH's job, only God does. But this is proof that He knows what He is doing!

Oli

I often have to tell myself this because we dont have any insurance either. I know, its hard.

Katie


Married to highschool sweetheart since 8-12-02


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Thu, 08-28-2003 - 12:34pm
Lisa, thanks for the devotional ! Also, don't hesitate to vent on our board; we are supporting one another on bad AND good days! Big {{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}} to you!

Anne ttc#1 c1 cd23
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Hooray! I finally made it on the board before 8 pm! I must be on vacation or something! LOL. I don't have anything new to report. My temps still haven't budged. For some reason I'm feeling much more "at peace" with everything the last couple of days, though. I think the support from all of you helps a lot. I also think I've resolved to just stop trying so hard- it will happen in its own time. I was perfectly normal before I ever started BCP, and sooner or later, I will be normal again.

Lisa- Hope you are feeling a little better. I hope you are able to draw some strength out of those beautiful devotionals you type for us each day.

Anne md- I wish you lots & lots of o~o~o~o~o~o "O" vibes o~o~o~o~o~o

Kathy- I don't think a little spotting after BD is too much cause for concern. It probably would have happened whether or not you BD.

Jetta- Thanks for the vibes!!! We could all use them!

Have a great night sisters! Hope you've all been getting my posts, since I'm usually so late to check in.

-Judy TTC#1, C2, CD36, ?????DPO if at all

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