SOS-"Sisters of Support" check in 8/28

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SOS-"Sisters of Support" check in 8/28
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Thu, 08-28-2003 - 8:26am
Good Morning Sisters,

My heart is heavy this morning and feels beaten down, so please keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I try to deliver an uplifting devotional for all of us. I will do the devotional in a separate post, not here, since I'm kinda venting. So sorry!! I couldn't stand it last night, so my best friend came over last night, ( She's TTC#2 and our cycles are 3 days apart) and we both tested with some internet tests I bought back in June. I told her I was very skeptical about the accuracy and she said we could try them and if nothing has happened by Friday, we would buy FRE's and take those. Well, as you can guess, we both got BFN's. And I had refrained from going to the bathroom for 6 hours, so I know it had to be strong enough. I think it was easier to handle cause she and DH was right there with me, but it still hurts. I got up this morning thinking, well, I'll take the test that came with my OPK's ( Answer Early), another BFN! So, I'm figuring AF will show her old ugly face soon, unless, oh my goodness, I'm possibly starting menopause. This cycle has been totally different than any other, so I just thought, " I must be pg ." I know it's not over til she shows, and there are no obvious signs of her. Usually, I'm spotting by now, but all I'm having is that very light brown/ pink watery/creamy cm, internal ONLY. Nothings made it to the outside and this has been going on since Sat. night. It's Thursday!!!!

I also have DH heavily on my mind and his current job situation, or should I say, lack of job. We've made it through Aug. with our bills, but I have no idea how we're gonna handle Sept. if he doesn't find something soon. It's putting a huge strain on us, in many ways other than financial. I'm trying to be as strong as I can, but it's getting more difficult. I told him last night that he may need to consider something temporary to get some money flowing, instead of searching for that perfect job with perfect money. He agreed. He has always said, " It's easier to find a job when you have a job."

Well, I guess that's enough of my whining for the day. I'm trying to be strong and so sorry to dump all of this on you ladies, but I know you will pray for God's will to be done in our lives. I hope everyone has a wonderful day!!!!

Devotional will follow.

BFP+++++ Vibes to all

~Lisa O~ 36 DH37 TTC#1 C4 CD30 12DPO ( according to FF)

http://circles2.fertilityfriend.com/home/24884



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Good Evening Sisters,

Well, I am feeling some better than I was this morning, however, I have had a couple of changes going on this evening. Just went to the restroom and "Spot/AF" is trying to finally make it to the "outside", ( TP only right now) but by morning, maybe even later on tonight, I expect her to be here full force. I definitely would not be telling the truth if I said I wasn't disappointed, I am, but on to the next cycle I go. All was not lost this month. DH & I connected in a way we haven't in a long time and he was able to regain some of his confidence. He understands so much more about my cycles now and seems more inclined to ask questions now, be more open about his wants and needs, and even willing to try new things. I'm expecting great things to happen in our lives,whether that means having a baby or not. We've always said that if it was not meant to be for us to have children,that we were ok with that.But,what a wonderful blessing a child would be.

DH also got on the phone today and touched base with everyone he knows to see about a job. He came across one of his previous Manager's phone #, and she is now with another company as a Supervisor, and she said that she definitely has a Manager position in her district that she wants to talk to DH about, so I am very hopeful that this may be the one. They've worked together in the past and got along very well. Please continue to keep us in your thoughts and prayers.

Hope everyone has a great evening and hopefully, I'll be able to find a good devotional for us tomorrow morning.

~Lisa O~

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